Kindle to Rekindle

33. Wiped Out

Nivedya departed from his residence with a sincere intention of reaching Nimrit's abode. His primary objective was to extend his heartfelt apology to her, acknowledging the gravity of his previous actions. Additionally, he yearned to confide in her, expressing the intricacies of his emotional turmoil and seeking solace in her understanding presence.
Her words "if there is any, us, after this," reverberated in his ear and he was freaking out. He could not lose her. With shivering hands, he rang her doorbell and Nimrit peeped from the door eye.

The worn-out face of Nivedya melted her heart immediately. She knew he must have realised his mistake and perhaps came to apologise. One of the several things she loved about him was his ability to realise his mistake and accept it. Not all men possessed that quality and she was lucky to get a boy like him. But, what he said to her at school... The bell rang again and Nimrit opened the door for Nivedya.

He exhaled a heavy breath because probably he forgot he had to breathe to live. They kept looking into each other's eyes for minutes until a strong gush of wind blew Nimrit's hair breaking their eye lock.

"May I come in, please." Nivedya requested in a desperate tone and Nimrit opened the gate wider to let him in. She latched the door and was immediately engulfed in a bear hug. "I am sorry. I am so sorry. I got jealous. So-so-so jealous. You told me that one only gets jealous when they know the one they love deserves someone better than them and I know Raghav is any day better than me. Please don't leave me." Nivedya was holding Nimrit tightly in his arms because he feared if he loosened his grip, she will go.

Nimrit had decided to not forgive him but his desperation told her she meant the world to him and he was genuinely sorry. Being jealous is acceptable but the words Nivedya told her in furry were demeaning and she didn't want to sacrifice her self-esteem.

She tried to come out of the bear hug but it was futile. So she requested, "Leave me." Nivedya loosened his grip but didn't leave Nimrit. "It is not the first time you said all those things to me. You said it before and I know you will say it again because the thought is deeply rooted in your heart. If it was just jealousy, I would have still tolerated it, but you questioned a very pure bond that I share with Raghav. Yes, he is better than all the boys, you included." Nimrit's words were daggers that passed through Nivedya's heart.

"Then why did you..." Nivedya stopped abruptly and created a little gap between Nimrit and him. He didn't want a forced relationship as he loved her insanely and wanted the best for her.

Lovers are selfish for the world but selfless to the one they love.

"Because I do not want the best. Just like I do not like the full moon." Nimrit explained her reason. She calmed herself and asked him, "why are you here? Have I not told you that my parents do not like anyone in their absence? Just go. I do not want to talk to you." Nimrit had cried enough and was sure she had no more tears left in her but Nivedya had the talent that could churn her emotions.

Nivedya joined his forehead with Nimrit's and asserted, "Be with the best. You deserve nothing but the best. It's hard for me to let you go but if it's for your good... I think you should..."

Nimrit pushed Nivedya and in a teary voice commanded, "Just leave my house right now!"

"Nimrit, I am serious. I..."

"LEAVE NOW! Or do you want me to throw you out?" Nimrit almost shouted and with heavy steps, Nivedya walked out of her house. He lost his love. His first love. Nimrit shut the door in his face. She couldn't believe she loved a moron like him. She told him she wanted him but his needle was stuck on Raghav being the best. For an instance, she thought of telling him Raghav was her brother but she couldn't. It was a secret and she had to hide it under all circumstances.