Kindle to Rekindle

59. Never Ever?

Lovers often say hurtful things to each other then what keeps them together?

Nivedya stood in front of Nimrit and lifted her chin to see her face, but he saw in her eyes unadulterated hurt with a pinch of hatred. Guilt filled him, and he couldn't find the correct words to commence the conversation. He raked his hand in his  hair in frustration and begged, "Let's talk Nimrit. It's been days. I hated every second we parted, and I cannot bear a day more." He touched Nimrit's cheek with love and requested, "Please help us out of this mess."

Nimrit had several complaints from Nivedya, and she fought with him every day in her head. She imagined lashing him out, punching him, knocking him down but when he was standing in front of her, she could do nothing. She felt a strong urge to mend things and get their life back on track. However, she wanted him to regret his actions.
"Why are you asking me? Do you not know what you have done? You have hurt me so much Nivi. Things will eventually get back to normal but whatever happened made me feel that I am nothing but a punching bag in your life."

Nivedya couldn't reason why Nimrit felt like that because she was the central hub of his life. "Nimrit, you now know the reason we had to stay at length. You are wise enough to understand the demands of the situation. My family was at risk and your father was investigating the matter, so it was the best we..."

"You stopped talking to me Nivi!" Nimrit almost screamed making Nivedya flinch at her tone. "Sorry. I did not mean to shout but it's so frustrating. For once, even if I give in to the demands of the situation, I fail to understand what made you behave the way you behaved with me. You were so mean, rude, and ignorant. You spoke to everyone like you do, so nicely, but with me, you did not spare a kind glance. I missed my goofy." Nimrit rolled her tongue on her lips in embarrassment. She was supposed to scold him and not say a sweet thing but she did and that made him bite the inside of his cheeks to hide his grin.

Nimrit picked a big cushion from the bed and threw it at Nivedya warning him sternly, "You dare not smile. I am very angry with you."

Nivedya didn't dodge the cushion because he thought it was better than a tight slap. He went closer to her, made her sit on his bed, scouted to her level, and touched her knee gently. Nimrit stiffened at the soft touch and inhaled deeply to calm herself.

Nivedya tried to put forward his point of view. "Nimrit I wasn't in the best of spirits. I felt confused, deceived by my own. Every day there was a fresh threat or some conspiracy brooding around my family that made me so scared. I wanted to help them but could not. Imagine one fine day you get up and know that the name and identity you carried with you was just a cover-up. I am Nivedya Rajvanshi and not Singh, The Prince of  Swarnbhoomi. A sudden sense of responsibility for the title made me feel so burdened yet worthy." Nivedya got up and sat next to Nimrit. He held her left hand between his palms and felt immense peace.

"You often take people you love for granted, and probably I did just that with you. I thought... no, I rather wanted you to understand my dilemma, my problems, and whatever I was going through without me having to tell you. I know that's a lot to ask but... I am sorry. Furthermore, I know I have been a jerk to you, and I am ready to face any punishment you decide."

Nimrit scoffed and withdrew her hand from Nivedya's warm hands. "So convenient. Why is your anger justified? Why do I always have to understand whatever you say in anger, you don't mean it? Honestly, I am done understanding you, your anger, your impulsiveness, and the secrets you are hiding. One fine day, you come and declare that we need to distance ourselves to keep everything in control. It was hard for me, but I still accepted it. You behaved as differently and as ignorant towards me like I was non-existent."

Nimrit fisted Nivedya's kurta and with eyes blazing in anger she questioned him, "What was my fault, Nivi? I just chose to  express my feelings to the boy who churned all the emotions inside me. It was just a harmless kiss emoji. I am sure the tech genius's son would have the highest degree of secure systems inside his house. The enemy couldn't have read our stupid chat. We couldn't meet publicly, but you broke all ties with me? You never called or messaged or even smiled at me. Your one smile  could wake me up from my deathbed, but this ignorance of yours was killing me bit by bit. Put yourself in my shoes and think, if you were in my place would you be able to keep the patience, I kept?"