False God

Chapter Thirteen

2020

Max POV

-I need help to make a decision. -I say as soon as Charles opens the door.

-I'm glad you've come to the wisest person in your life to know what decision to make.

-You're such an idiot. -I say and enter.

-You can't call your advisor an idiot, have more respect for someone of superior intellect. -Charles says and I know he is trying to hold back a laugh.

-God, okay, I'm going to ignore this because you're crazy, but I came to talk to you because Lewis kind of asked me to stay with him for a few days.

-A couple's trip? -Charles says and I already regret having come to talk to him.

-We're not a couple, so it can't be a couple trip.

-You told me you stayed with him at Silverstone, what would be different now?

-I don't know, I just think it seems like something like we're a couple. You know? Like, we're on vacation and naturally we go out with some friends, and we're single, so it's natural that we, I don't know, stay with other people. But then he asks me to stay a few days with him, just with him. -I say, but with every word that comes out of my mouth I feel more stupid.

-So, you want to be with other people? -Charles asks.

-Charles, that's not the point, it's that we seem to be crossing a line, you know, doing couple things when we're not one, maybe things can get weird. -I explain.

-So, this is all about your fear of falling in love with him?

-What?

-Yeah, I mean, you're all worried and freaked out, but Lewis probably called you because he wants to have sex with you, like, you two have gone a long time without sex, haven't you? Since Silverstone, he's probably just been wanting to have sex with you, without having to worry about racing or being discovered. Isn't that your agreement? -Charles says up and I feel stupid for freaking out about nothing.

-Oh, it probably is, I just thought... I... yeah, that's probably it.

-Disappointed? - Charles asks with a stupid smile.

-What? Why?

-Because I think you came to me for advice because you thought I would say something super romantic. Like, "Wow Max, he must be so in love with you, you should go and live this beautiful love story," but then I tell you the truth and you get this look on your face.

-I didn't think about it, really, I never thought he was in love or could be. Have you ever looked at him? -I say being sincere.

-Have you looked at yourself? You devalue yourself too much, Max.

-Stop it. -I say and I'm sure my cheeks are turning red.

-Seriously, you just don't see how amazing you're. Well, I think that if you feel like going, you should go, stop overthinking it.

-Seb said he was afraid that we both might get hurt. Do you think we did wrong? Having this kind of friendship. Do you think I would hurt Lewis?

-Look, aside from the complicated fact that you are both drivers, I think it's normal. I guess Seb thought about the possibility that one of you could fall in love and end up getting hurt, but I don't know. Are you in love with him?

-No. -I answer being sincere, yes, definitely sincere.

-So, relax, you're too tense.

-Ok.