Cheater | Svt Jeonghan

C - 19

I'm looking at the sky. I'm in the garden right now. I just gave Joshua his medicine. I'm still wondering why they're here.

I felt someone hold my hand. I saw Joshua holding my hands while he was sniffing. He is still sick but still comes out. Very reprimanded indeed.

"Why are you here? Didn't I let you rest in your room," I said while looking at the sky. "I saw you in my window,"

"You look sad,"

"Again."

"I'm not,"

"Don't lie grace, eyes can't lie and you know my profession, so what's your problem right now?" We both sat on the floor looking at each other.

"I don't have a problem shua, why do you keep insisting that I have," I laughed. I don't want to give him a problem because he is already sick.

He suddenly grabbed my nape and hugged me. I'm leaning on his shoulders while my face is facing his neck. "Now, you can tell me,"

He wants me to tell my story without looking at him. He kept creasing my hands. And I feel that my tears are already in the edge of my eyes.

"Grace, I can protect you,"

"I can protect you and your thoughts," He's now creasing my back to make me comfortable around him. I found myself crying on his shoulders quietly.

"Don't cry in silence, you will get hurt," That's true. Why can't I speak up whenever I'm sad or angry?

"Tell me, everything," I wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. "I saw my parents..."

"Your parents?" I nodded and I knew he felt it. "I saw all of them even my uncle who sexually assaulted me,"

"I saw them,"

"They're so happy without me,"

"How are they living without one of their children?" My chest tightens when I remember what happened to me. Even my uncle is with them. Mom really didn't believe me.

"My mom said, she loves me, but why can't she protect her own daughter from monsters around her?"

"This love is a real torture,"

"I don't know who else to believe in as long as I live." My tears keep flowing even though it's embarrassing I can't stop myself from opening up to him.

I hope Joshua will not betray me someday.

"I saw him,"

"I saw the man who ruined my life,"

"He is with my parents,"

"They're so happy. While I'm working overnight Just to fed up with myself all day. I'm working for almost 24 hours just to support myself. I applied abroad Just to heal myself?

"Why am I the one who needs to heal?"

"Why do I have to be hurt by the sins of others?"

"Why me?"

"I dreamed a lot when I was 18 years old, I loved myself after I served people, I wanted to be a mom." I removed what I was leaning on his head and faced the stars above.

In my peripheral vision I saw him just looking at me dearly. He has dreamy eyes. Pointed nose. Healthy hair. Healthy him.

Joshua is Just a perfect masterpiece." You know when I was 18, I wished I could meet a girl who could see me as a man of her dreams," I heard him chuckle.

"I told my mom before she left. My wife will give birth to a baby girl." I looked at him and he rested deeply. "But sometimes our faith is really unpredictable,"

"I didn't know. That when mom died I spent too much of myself at my work. Just to forget her." He keeps comforting other people.

But he. He himself is also hurting.

"Not until I left the country and rested. That's why I saw you that day," He looked at me and smiled.

He saw me shouting out of my lungs that day. I will never forget that incident. He just saved me from my suicidal thoughts.

Why does this man keep appearing when I need someone by my side?

My eyes widened when he touched my cheeks and creased it. "You're that prettiest and the most simple person I know grace,"

He slowly brought his face closer to mine and I just closed my eyes on purpose and touched his cheek. His lips touched mine and I felt his tears drip.

"I like you grace," was his last word before he lost consciousness and he leaned his head on my shoulder.

I like you too, but I hope I won't regret loving you too.