Cheater | Svt Jeonghan

C - 41

I've already been released from the hospital. I am now alone here in my condo because they are not allowed to take leave. They're already on leave for almost 3 months just because of me.

I don't want to be a burden to them.

I roamed my eyes into my room and it's so empty. I have my fancy things. But I'm all alone. I just sighed and started putting my things back in their proper place.

I opened my bag and all the clothes I used for almost 3 months in the hospital came out. I didn't use it all because I was wearing a patient's gown.

I cleaned the entire living room and then put my dirty clothes in the automatic washing machine.

While I was waiting, I cooked something that I could eat. I have chicken in my refrigerator. I suddenly remembered chikay!

"Where is my baby," I whispered as I rummaged through my bag to find him. "I found you!" I immediately choked her and punched her.

I don't know but I feel sorry for her. I've been torturing her for almost and most of the day. My stress is really relieved by punching and choking that chicken.

I'm just going to put Joshua's picture there and punch him again and again.

"Huh! He and his girl are together," I rolled my eyes. Even though I don't have anyone here at home. I'm talking to myself. I'm laughing alone.

I still remember my former manager Dokyeom. I even told him that he was going crazy.

After my dish is done. I ate and I tried to sleep on my sofa. I still can't.

I opened my phone and scrolled into my gallery. I saw our precious pictures and moments. We've been on for nine years. I'm supposed to be a married person right now.

"My life is so wrong," My smile faded when I saw our picture kissing each other while wishing.

'Wishing for a baby girl next year!'

"Being a mom is one of my dreams, I'm already 28. I should be carrying a baby in my womb right now," I suddenly remembered that I wrote that in my diary.

"I wanted to live a normal life with my family. After I became a successful nurse, I'm going to build my own family and I'm going to take care of my kids,"

"My mom and dad never cared about me, I will not let my child experience what I experienced," As soon as I said that my tears dropped from my eyes.

I'm super emotional these days. I'm keeping myself productive to forget some things that can ruin my mental health. I don't want to kill myself again.

Instead of complaining about it, I walked into my room and faced the mirror. I took off my upper clothes. I unclothed myself. Until I became naked.