You And Me Against All Odds

01

SIMULA

I am Liora Sariah Reyes. 17 years old. I'm studying in STI Collge Global City at Taguig and it's my last year in Senior High.

I want to stop the time because I'm not yet ready for college. Sabi kasi nila mahirap daw kaya ayoko pa. Magpabagsak kaya ako? Pwede naman diba? At least may time pa ako para mapaghandaan ang college.

Pero kung gagawin ko yun, saan ako titira? Hay pero joke lang. Gusto ko mag college. Takot ako sa lola ko, ayaw nun na nagkakamali, pero galit pa rin ako sakanya.

I live in Camella Homes Subdivision along with my grandma and grandpa. I have a sister, she's 26 na and she's not living with us for some reason.

My papa died when I was a baby kaya hindi ko na sya nakilala at hindi na ako nasundan pa, pero kahit ganun, walang araw na hindi ko naisip na sana andito pa rin sya kasama ko, kasi kung nandito sya, for sure hindi ako mahihirapan ng ganito.

I remembered, home schooled ako nung elementary and hindi ko naranasan lumabas ng bahay namin noon kahit isang beses. My lola doesn't allow me to go out and play outside. Delikado daw.

Kaya nung junior high school ko, I had a hard time. As in sobrang nahirapan ako. I don't know how to socialize with people. Masyado akong naging mahiyain. Palaging nakayuko.

I'm always self-conscious every time they look at me, that there might be something wrong with what i'm wearing or baka ako mismo ang problema kaya lagi kong binibilisan ang paglalakad ko. Hanggang ngayon ganun pa rin naman, pero slight na lang.

My lola sheltered me too much to the point na hindi ko alam paano ba makipag interact sa mga classmates ko kasi nasanay ako na walang kinakausap sa bahay maliban sa kanila.

Kaya nga i'm lucky that I met Reya and Freya. They're twins and they are my bestfriends. The only friends that I have and they are so much enough for me. Sila lang ang nakakatagal sa ugali ko.

They said that I am a perfectionist, and they're right. Ayoko laging nagkakamali, nainit agad ang ulo ko kapag ganun. Nakuha ko ang ugaling iyon sa lola ko at hindi ako proud doon. Sino ba naman kasi ang taong hindi nagkakamali diba?

Hanggang ngayon na SHS na ako ay si reya and freya lang talaga ang naging kaibigan ko. Hindi na nadagdagan at okay lang yun.

Between my lola and lolo; i like my lolo more. I know it's not good to compare but I can't help it. Hindi ko maipagkakaila na mas gusto ko ang lolo ko. I love how he cares for me. He always ask how my day went everytime I go home from school and always ask me if i needed something.

And my grandma? well, i don't know. After all that has happened, i can't say if she really cared for us.

But I love her pa rin despite of everything, even if sometimes the word she says break me at kapag nangyayari yun, I will go to my room at dun magsisimulang mag unahan ang mga luha ko sa pag bagsak. Kapag tapos na, lalabas ako sa room ko as if nothing happened, at ganun din lola ko.

She will act as if her words didn't affect me or maybe she just have no idea how hurt I am sa mga sinabi nya at sa mga ginawa nya sakin noon. Palaging ganoon ang nangyayari kaya nasasanay na ako na ganun. Yun nga lang, naiiipon ang hinanakit ko.

I love my lola and I'm thankful to her. I really do but it's hard to live in the same house with her. Sobrang hirap.

Nung umalis si ate dito sa bahay, gusto kong sumama. Gustong gusto, kaya lang, napatingin ako sa lola at lolo ko. Kahit naman ganun lola ko, i love her so much pa rin, kaya hindi na ako sumama. But it doesn't mean that i forgave her sa nangyari. I will never forgave her.