Use Somebody

Chapter 39:

Louis's POV:

I got home and yell out for Harry. He didn't answer me so I assume that he was still out with Zayn. I set myself to making dinner and burned myself and the food in the process. So I just made a bowl of cereal. I was in my pajamas and still waiting for Harry to come home. So while I waited I sat down to watch Grease. I hear my phone ring and pick it and see that it's Harry.

"Why did you lie to me?" Harry says.

"What are you talking about?"

"You said you loved me and that you wanted me, but you don't."

I could hear the sadness in his voice.

"Harry, I do love you and I do want you. Who told you that?"

"I'm safe, don't worry about it. But I trusted you and I gave you everything that I had. I loved you and wanted you too. You took advantage of me and I let you meet my family. I never let Nick do that, all he knows is I have a nephew. I'm sorry but I can't do this. I thought I could trust you and you proved me wrong."

"What are you talking about? I do want you and you're the best thing that has ever happened to me. Why are you acting like this? I love you. Come back home please. Baby we can fix this. Whatever they told you, we can fix it. I promise, I have always loved and wanted you. Don't do this please."

"You're almost as bad as Nick but at least one of you doesn't lie."

I felt like I had been slapped across the face. Tears welled up in my eyes.

"Please don't do this Harry! I love you! Come back home!"

"No! I can't trust you and I don't know why I ever did. You never did anything for me. All of those things you promised were lies. Why would you do that? I gave you everything! My love, I was vulnerable and you used me. Now I can check that off of the list. You used me and it was all for your own benefit. I can't believe I ever bragged about you to my sister. My sister was sure that you were the one and I agreed. I was so happy when we got together and even happier when we had sex for the first time in my bakery. I never thought that I could feel like this and I was proven wrong. I've never felt like this for anyone but I did for you and I thought that we felt the same way but evidently we didn't. I'm sorry Louis but I can't."

"No! Harry don't do this! I need you and I can't live without you! You don't understand, if it wasn't for you I would have killed myself to get myself out of that depressed state! You saved me and I've never been happier in my life! You brought me that happiness. I love you and need you to come back. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you! Please Harry come back! I need you!"

The tears were running down my face now and my voice was cracking. I could hear it in Harry's voice too.

"Dammit Louis, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I have to go, goodbye Louis. I'm not coming back." Harry says hanging up.

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I haven't moved from the couch in days, except to eat and go to the bathroom. I'm ignoring all of my calls and texts. Harry left me because he thought I didn't want him. I've never felt this empty before not even when Aidan had died. My phone rings again and I glance at it. It's Liam. I put it on silent and ignore his call for the 45th time. My life feels empty without Harry. I don't know where he is or what he's doing. He's probably already moved on, just like he did with Nick. Like I was just the next dick he was trying to check off of his list. He said something about a list but I never lied to him or say I didn't want him. I gave him a promise ring and I promised I would always be there for him but I don't think it works if he's the one that leaves. I hear a knock on the door and don't even bother to answer it. I hear someone rustle around for the hidden keys and open the door. They walk into the living room where I am sulking. It's Gemma and Liam.

"Where is Harry and why are you ignoring my calls and texts?" Gemma demands.

"He's gone. He left me. Claimed I didn't love him and never did. Said I lied about everything."

"That's bullshit! You love him and he's head over heels in love with you. He would never leave you." Liam yells.

"Well, I don't know where he is, so don't bother asking me again." I say and stare back at the blank wall in front of me.

"You look like shit. How long have you been sitting here?" Gemma asks.

"What's today?"

"Thursday."

"Three days."

"My brother has been missing for three days and you haven't said anything to me!" Gemma yells at me.

"I thought he was with you!" I say aggravated.

"He's been missing for three days. He's not with me, or Zayn or you!" Gemma says. "Where could he have gone?"

"I don't know. Frankly I don't give a fuck. He broke up with me. Go find him your god damn self." I say and lay down on the couch.

I stayed there for the next week.