Use Somebody

Chapter 6:

Louis's POV:

I stood outside the door contemplating whether I should knock or not. I had gone home and changed since I was no longer on duty. I was now wearing black skinny jeans and a tank top that said skate rough, my hair was no longer gelled back out of my face but rather falling in my face. I had my wedding band still on but on my middle finger instead. I couldn't bear to get rid of everything that reminded me of Aidan. He was such a big part of me. I didn't want to let him go yet. I knocked on the door and opened it after I thought that I heard him say come in.

I walked in and saw him crying again. I couldn't imagine the kind of pain that he was in. He just lost his son Jayden. I can imagine that his heart is absolutely broken. I walked up to him and sat down on the bed I held his hand. He snatched his hand away from mine to cover his face. He was wiping his face and then I heard his choked breathing. He leaned onto my shoulder and I held him close to me.

"He ki-killed William. Lou-is, he killed him a-and I can never for-forgive him for that. I loved William so much." He cried.

"I'm so sorry Harry. I wish I could make this better. I tried everything I could to save him for you." I reassured him. "Hopefully when you leave here the pain will get better. You'll be out of here soon. I promise."

"But wh-what about Will-William? He ne-never gets to lea-leave."

"Harry, is there another baby I don't about. Perhaps one you've already had?"

He shook his head no. The tears were coming at a steady speed and I couldn't see an ending to them.

"Then who is William?"

"My ba-baby."

"Jayden?"

He nodded his head.

"Was his name supposed to be William? Because Nick named him."

He nodded. "He kn-knows I hat-hate the na-name Jay-Jayden. So wh-why wou-would he name my prec-precious ba-baby that?"

I leaned his head up to look into his sad green eyes that killed me. I could feel his sadness as though it was mine. I had never felt this before. Every baby that I have ever delivered that had died or just didn't make it through the first night never gave me a feeling like this. He affected me in ways that I never knew was possible. I felt like this baby was mine also, he made me want to cry and not for Aidan but for his baby that he had lost.

"He told me that any part of you didn't deserve to die because of something that he did." I dried his tears. He looked at me and I saw what I never thought I would see again.

I could see love in his eyes not the grief I thought that I would find. I saw that he has loved and been hurt before. But more importantly he was in love with someone right now. But the only person he has looked at since is Nick and myself. He said that he hoped Nick got to rot in hell. But he couldn't be in love with me. I was the one who delivered his dead baby. I was the one who told him that his baby had died. I was the one who let Nick into the room when he thought it was his mom. I was the one who hurt him the most. But he couldn't be in love with Nick. He hated him.

"Louis?"

I got dragged from my thoughts.

"Are you okay?"

I nodded. "William is my middle name."

"Oh." He looked down at his lap.

"But that's not all."

He looked back up at me. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach from what I was about to do. I grabbed both sides of his face and brought my lips down onto his.