𓁹☦︎︎ Bloodlust ☦︎︎𓁹 Sakuatsu vampire AU

« Chapter Twenty-one »

A/N this chapter has more self harm in it don't force yourself to read if your not comfortable. <3

The next day

Hinata ran in and pulled Atsumu into a tight hug.

"Sho I can't breathe" he said as he hugged him back.

"I'm sorry I didn't notice something was going on, I was being super selfish I'm sorry Atsu!!" He only hugged him tighter.

"It's okay Sho, but please. Let go a bit" his voice was slightly strained as Hinata pulled away.

"It's not yoru fault. It's mine so don't worry you were being selfish or anything" Hinata looked angry, And offended.

"Miya Atsumu!" He started, Atsumu was already scared. Hinata was scary when he's angry.
"You do not get to take the fall for this! This was not your fault and you are a great human being and I don't know what I am saying anymore! I just want you to be okay!" He said it all very quickly.

"Sorry Hinata"

"Nope! No. No. No. forbidden word. Now go home. You are, not! Working today"

"Ha ha. Todays the busiest day of the week, Friday. No way" Hinata glared at him.

"I'm going. I'm going" he said as he walked towards the door and on his way out flipped the 'closed' sign so it was now on the 'open' side.

!!!! SELF HARM MENTIONS !!!!

When Atsumu got home he layed down and looked his phone while lying on his side.
He got bored and started to think about a lot of different things, he started to think everyone was still annoyed at him. He went into the kitchen and grabbed three lighters because he didn't look and just grabbed three at random just in case they were out.
He went into the bathroom and pulled up the sleeve of his hoodie. He had a look at th three lighters and two of them were half empty and the other was pretty much full.
He burned part of his forearm, quite close to his wrist.
Suddenly he heard the front door open.

"Hey Atsu, I had a longer break today so I came over"

Atsumu got a fright and practically threw the lighter in the sink.

"Hi-Hi Omi!" He stuttered as he quickly ran his arm under cold water and left two of the lighters stood up on the edge of the sink.
He turned around and went to see Sakusa.

"Are you okay Tsumu?" Sakusa kissed him lightly.

"Yeah, how come you got a longer break today?"

"Well I said I had family issues and they agreed to let me have longer breaks"

Atsumu was gently edging the bathroom out of Sakusas gaze.

"But I still only have twenty-five minutes and it took me like fifteen to get here"" Sakusa groaned a little while Atsumu chuckled slightly and kissed him again.

"Acting like a human is so slow" 

"Yeah not everyone can walk at a hundred million miles a minute, so inconvenient" He sarcastically rolled his eyes.

"I have to be back in five minutes? I can't deal with those college students. They ask so many questions" He rested his head in the crook of Atsumus neck while Atsumu just laughed slightly and patted his back.

"I have to go.  Love you" He kissed Atsumu.

"Love you too" he smiled as  Sakusa went to the front door.

Atsumu went into the bathroom, rolled up his sleeve and picked up the lighter from the sink.
His arm slipped and he burnt the palm of his hand by accident.

"Shit!" He shouted as he dropped it on the floor and ran the tap on cold quickly.
Sakusa appeared in the door frame when he heard Atsumu yell.

"I thought..you left?..."

"Atsumu-" he hugged him tightly and almost started crying but held his tears in.

"I'm sorry" Atsumu sniffled.

"Do you want me to stay with you today?"

"No no I'll be fine I promise"

"Are you sure? Because I-"

"Honestly it's fine it was just one tiny one it's fine, I'm fine"

"Okay then.." Sakusa hugged him again but behind his back grabbed the lighters and stepped on the one on the floor, breaking it.

Sakusa walked away but went into the kitchen first and took the box away that had all the lighters.

Time skip of half an hour

Atsumu couldn't stop thinking of burning himself, then all the thoughts came back to him and he went into the bathroom to get the lighters. They were gone. He went to the kitchen. The box was gone.

'Fuck!..' he thought, he grabbed his phone and out his shoes on and walked to the closest convenience shop.
He bought a ten pack of lighters. But as he was walking out the store he saw Sakusa on the opposite side of the street, he'd obviously just gone to get some coffee and was heading back. He walked across the street as quickly as he could, trying to avoid him.
He successfully avoided him, when he got back to his apartment he ripped the packet open and  went into the bathroom, he didn't come out for three hours. When he did, he'd used three full lighters.
His face was stained with tears and his hands were trembling.

"I'm such an idiot.." he muttered as he sat down.
He couldn't call anyone. He could call Sakusa but he was working, and he said he was quite busy.

Time skip to 7:30

Sakusa was an hour late back but Atsumu was already asleep.
Sakusa went into the bathroom to shower but when he went in he saw the the packet and the scattered lighter with the three empty ones.
He broke down in silent tear's.
'Fuck. How do I help him?..'