𓁹☦︎︎ Bloodlust ☦︎︎𓁹 Sakuatsu vampire AU

« Chapter Thirty-four »

Sakusa didn't bother getting out of bed for the next two days. All he could do was keep re-reading Atsumus last message.
The only time he moved was when he thought there was a notification on his phone, hoping it was Atsumu. Truth was it was only work asking why he wasn't in.
He just replied saying he was sick and unable to come in. He'd texted Atsumu seven times and called him twice, he was a bit afraid he might have done something to himself.

"Atsumu"
"Im sorry, please"
"Talk to me please"
"Please"
"I'm really sorry"
"I'll fix it"
"Please?"

They were all sent over two hours ago.

Atsumu hadn't slept at all, his head hurt worse than ever.
He thought to himself.
'I can't try sleep because then I'm to comfy and then I cry but I can't cry anymore because it hurts my head but if my head hurts I get more tired and I..'
When he checked his phone he read the new message from Sakusa.

"Atsumu call me, please so we can talk?"

"I don't want to"

"Please?"

He hesitantly called Sakusa and set his phone down next to him on speaker so he didn't have to hold it.

"What" he said coldly.

"Please can I just talk?"

"Go ahead" his voice cracked as he almost started crying again.

"I'm not ashamed of you-"

"Yet I'm a secret-"

"Let me speak Atsumu! I'm not ashamed of you and I know you understand it's not easy being out and I don't care what the people I work with think of me. But I still have to work with them, still have to deal with the harassment from them. So I'm sorry if you feel like I'm ashamed of you and you think your a secret but that's not how it is" Atsumu let out quiet sobs that Sakusa could only just hear over the phone.

"Im sorry i-" he interrupted himself when he tried to calm down to stop crying.

"Atsumu I dont need you to be sorry I just need you to understand what I have to deal with as well"

"I'm sorry I accused ya" he turned away as he silently cried into his sheets.

"Atsumu? Are you still there? Atsumu?" He couldn't answer. He felt so guilty and shitty and like an idiot.
He turned over so he could hang up and then continued to cry into his sheets, not silently but it was muffled enough so you couldn't really hear it.
He couldn't hear anything over his cries, not even the knock at the door and then it opening.

"Atsumu?" Sakusa half yelled. There was no answer so he just went through to his room, he  could just see Atsumus blonde hair from under the covers.
When he sat down next to him he saw the lighter next to Atsumus phone.
He sat up and wiped his face as he tried to calm down.

"I'm sorry. I" his voice kept breaking in between. "I am so annoying" he choked out.

"Your not annoying Atsumu-"

"Yes I am. I accused you and I'm always messing up and. And" He fumbled around next to his phone for the lighter, forgetting Sakusa was there.
He flicked the lighters lid open and and then shut as Atsumu turned around.
He tugged at his hair.

"Fuck..fuck..fuck!!" He pinched at his skin and dug his nails into his palm.
Sakusa grabbed Atsumus wrists and held them so he would stop hurting himself.

"Let go!" He tried to pull away but eventually gave in.

"I'm not going to let you hurt yourself" Sakusas tone was cold, which made Atsumu meet his eyes.
He let go of his wrists, a bit stunned when he felt tight arms squeezing around him.

"I'm sorry. It must not mean much anymore but I am I really am" Atsumu said as he squeezed Sakusa tight.
Atsumu looked up when heard soft sobs from above, he looked up to see Sakusa quietly crying.

"I thought I fucking lost you.." he sniffled as Atsumu pulled away, sitting up so he was closer to him.

"I'm-" Sakusa kissed him before he could finish.

"I'm the one who should apologise" He said when he pulled away, leaving Atsumu a bit stunned.

"I'm really sorry Atsumu" he wiped his eyes. "I never want you to feel like that because of me"

"It's fine. Honestly"

"It's not though.."

"Now you need to listen to me" He held Sakusas Face, forcing him to make eye contact.

"Its not your fault it's my fault for-"

"Let's just say it's both our faults?" They both had red puffy eyes.

"Fine. But I still don't think it's your fau-" His sentence was cut short by a kiss.

"Stop dwelling on it" Sakusa said while running his hand through Atsumus hair.

"I know but still!" Sakusa held his head close to his chest as he flopped them both onto their sides.

"Shut up Tsum Tsum"

"Rude! Plus.." he stopped talking when Sakusa whispered something in his ear which made him to flustered to continue.

"Not so talkative Atsu?"

"F-fuck off" Atsumu gently nudged away from Sakusa.

"Stuttering? Awww Tsumu-" He stopped when he was suddenly under Atsumu who was straddling him. He had his hands on Atsumus thighs.
'How the fuck?' Sakusa thought to himself, though he soon let his mind go blank when Atsumu kissed him a few times. He only pulled away so he could admire his handsome boyfriend, he quickly went back to kissing him.
Atsumu looked down at Sakusa with pleading eyes when the other pulled away, he was teasing Atsumu because he knew it would only make him more restless.

"Kiyoomi Just Kiss me. Please" Sakusa somehow swapped their positions. So It would take more effort for Atsumu to make a move.

"Your so impatient my love" He said it pretty much against Atsumus lips. He felt a slight tug at his shirt, only making him wait more.

"Sakusa stop teasing!" He was practically begging now.
He finally gave in and rewarded Atsumu.