~secrets~ (loki and the Avengers story) Discontinued

~Nightmare~

*tonys house*
-3:36 am-

"Your nothing... Worthless... Pathetic...
Weak..."
Loki's father boomed. Loki's face had hot tears running down it and he couldn't help getting completely overwhelmed by his fathers words. He hated him, he hated everything about his father. His mocking words, his angry and disowning glares, his disappointed frown. He hated it all he swore he would never come back to Asgard. Why was he back? Did tony and thor send him back? Did he do something wrong. Angry and sad thoughts filled Loki's head as his 'father' kept repeating his nasty and hurtful words over and over again. Loki stared at the cracked white floor he wanted nothing more then to leave or run but he seemed to be glued in place like a deer in headlights. "Look at me Loki" his father hissed, Loki slowly looked up his father wasn't normal his eye glowed a dark black and horns and a devil tail grew from his body, he had a frighting and sinister grin on his face. "You sad creature" odin laughed, his laugh filled Loki's head and he cried out "leave me alone!" He shouted. "Your not real!! Your dead, I know you are you died in front of me" Loki yelled. "Oh child I am dead" odin whispered. He slowly stepped towards Loki, Loki could feel his heart pounding his mind was telling him to run but he just couldn't he was glued to the floor. All he could do was look down and pray he wasnt going to be beat. Odin stopped directly in front of Loki he smiled and squatted down so his face was at Loki's level. "Child look at me" odin growled loudly. Loki's slowly pulled his glaze up to look at his so called father, "I will haunt you till your days end" he growled and put his hand up. "Father please" Loki cried "please I didn't d-" before he could continue a hand hit his cheek, Loki whined and put his hand on his face. "Father please please.." He pleaded. Odins strong hand grabbed his neck lifting him off the ground, Loki wiggied and gasped for air as he crawled odins arms. His face flushed a light purple as he choked and cried, his strength was fading and his vision grew blurry. 'This was it' Loki thought 'I'm going to die by the person who's supposed to love me more then anyone'. Then everything went black, loki shot up gasping for air he put his hand to his chest and gripped his shirt. "I'm alive" he managed to choke out as his eyes shot around the room. His breath slowed as he realized he was still in tonys house in the comfortable soft bed. He laid back and let his head hit his pillow, nightmares like this were common for him all that trauma he endured had to come out some way, which was dreams mostly all his trauma would flash in his dreams causing him to wake up most nights screaming about his mother. That was a very common dream for him he would be sitting with his mother she would be reading his favorite book before bed then everything would go black when it would go back to normal his mother wou be dead covered in blood with ice though her and a mirror beh her facing at Loki who was blue in his frost giant form. He would look at his hands they were always covered in blood his mother's blood. Then he would wake up screaming he was sorry and he didn't want to hurt her. He would cry and beg for his mother to be alive again, she was the only one who believed in him the only one he could trust with his problems she was everything to him.

Loki wiped his tears with his palm and looked around the room. Then he spotted it.. the camera it was painful obvious and he wish he wasn't as tired to not notice it before he fell asleep but now it was to late. They shorely (idk how to spell it sorry (◞‸◟ㆀ).. saw him waking up teared filled eyes gasping for air, they would ask him about it and he would have to tell them. He hated feeling like this it made him feel weak, they would see he was weak he didn't want that not one bit. "I have to turn that camera off or at least delete that part of the video" he mumbled to himself. "He pushed the blanket off and threw his legs off the bed and stood up. "Alright how am I going to do this" he questioed. He glared at the camera for a minute thinking his magic would break it when it didnt he sighed and ran his hand though his hair. "Wait what is that" he put his arm out in front of him and and stared at the green bracelet on his wrist. "Im so stupid I completely forgot about this stupid thing" he sighed annoyed he forgot about it. He pulled at it but it didn't buge (oof) so then he bug his nails into it, nothing. He growled and his eyes glowed a light green he was getting frustrated very frustrated. He pushed his palm on it hoping it would slide off his hand but it didn't instead it snapped off slicing his palm open. Blood slowly pooled out and dripped onto the cream colored carpet "fuck" be yelled and cuffed his free hand under his other. They would know now he took it off he could have fixed it and put it back on but now his palm was cut so they would know he 'tried' taking it off. "Im screwd" Loki whined as the blood slipped though his fingers and fall to the floor, he looked at the door it was open and the hall light shined though, they must have checked on him in the middle of the night. He walked out a blood trail following behind 'shit shit shit' Loki's thoughts were running and he couldn't think of what to do. 'Take a deep breath for God sake Loki' he said angerly to himself. Loki took a deep breath in for 3 and out for 7 he did this 3 more times before he could think clearly. "Ok I have to bandage this..hmm oh yes! The bathroom" he smiled and used his foot to pushed the bathroom door open and step in. He put his hands over the sink and let the blood drip down, he turned on the sink and ran his palm under it. He winced as it stared to sting and burn 'ow, whys it hurts so much, my cuts never hurt that much... Maybe it's because I never had water run on them' he frowned and grabbed a wash cloth that was next to the sink. He rapped his hand up and set down in front of the sink pulling the cabinet open. There was toilet paper, soap, cleaning supplies and bandages and band aids. "Perfect" Loki said happily and grabbed the white bandage and set it on his lap. He unrapped the wash cloth and pulled the bandage up and slowly rapped it around his palm. "I think this is good now a band aid" Loki only knew what these were because he got them at Miss. Robins Doctor office in the human realm. He loved Miss.Robin she was super sweet and helped Loki with his anger and depression.

Loki reached for the band aids and popped then open. They were small characters on them a blue dog and a paw print a guy in a green shirt and some salt and pepper, he didn't know what the show was but he found them cute, he had a hard time choosing but in the end chose the salt and pepper. He undid the paper off of it and put the sticky side down in the middle of the bandage sealing the bandage in place. He smiled and shoved everything under the sink including the bloody wash cloth. He pulled himself up and looked at the floor it was covered in blood and and left a trail to his room, he grab the towel that was hanging on the backside of the bathroom door and dropped it on the floor using his foot to move the towel around. Once he made it to the carpet in his room he didn't know what to do it wasn't coming out even after he scrubbed it with his non injured hand. He looked around his room for something that would help him, he set his eyes on his blanket. He grabbed his blanket and threw it on the floor it just bearly was long enough to cover up the trail. Loki then walked out of his room and down the hallway to the stair which he carefully walked down but before he setted off the final steps he peaked his head out. He made a sigh of relief when he realized he was the only one awake, he hopped off the steps and made his way into the kitchen. He stared at the table a laptop was on it open, he seen people use this at the doctors office so clearly he knew what he was doing by just watching them.. Clearly.. Loki run is hards over the keys and pushed one making the computer turn from black to a grey and white screen with his room on it. 'Oh that's my room.. I guess they really were watching me' he frowned and pushed another button on the computer then another and another in till he managed to get the delete button to pop up. "De..lete?" He mumbled sounding it out, I think this is it he pushed a button then another and another and another and so forth in till it the camera footage was gone and the camera turned off. 'Yes!! Im so smart, this human stuff is so eazy' he beemed happily, he shut the laptop down, that was the one thing he actually knew how to do on it. Loki bolted up the stairs and into his room flopping on the bed and cuddling up to his pillow, he soon fell asleep but this time he didn't have a nightmare just peaceful sleep.

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