Odd one out.

Darkness

I see Theos face in my dreams, I wish I could stay like this forever in the abyss of my mind where everything was ok and normal. Before the war, before the pain and before the love of my life was taken away from me by this own fathers followers. I stare at his face taking in every detail, the way his eyes light up when he smiles or concentrated on something he's passionate about, the way his hair falls right no matter what he does to it, the way he lit up my world when he walked into it, his zero shits given attitude. I just want everything like this when I wake up, for everything to be back to normal. I start to drift in and out of consciousness and before I know it I can hear everything going on around me but I can't move my body, I can't open my eyes or make a noise to let them know im waking up so I just lay here. Time passes but I don't know how much time when I hear footsteps coming into the room 'he's dead then' I hear draco whisper and my heart drops 'yes he is' I hear Tom say, he sounds like he's been crying 'nothings going to be normal again for any of us' Tom says 'I know it's going to be weird trying to make a new life after everything' draco huffs as he's sits down on the bed next to me 'she's going to want to know everything that happened' Draco whispers his voice breaking as he strokes my hair 'we will tell her everything when she's ready' Tom replies and I hear footsteps walking away from us. 'You need to wake up y/n' I feel draco stand up and he starts to pace around the room, he paces for sometime because he kisses my cheek and leaves me here alone again.

I fall asleep again and this time I don't dream when I wake up I find I can open my eyes so I start to move my arms and legs. I turn my head to see it's dark outside of the window, I lay there waiting to see if I can hear anyone but I don't, I can't stand being in this room anymore I don't know how long I've been out for but I find I have some of my pjs on so I sit up and get out of bed, I peek my head out of the door and see no one is there so I walk out into the hallway and out of the door from what I think is the hospital wing. I don't know where I'm heading but my feet are taking somewhere and before I know it I'm back at the common room door, it's already open so I step inside and as I get into the main of the common room my eyes tear up, no one is in here and I end up walking to Theos room, I open the door and step in closing the door behind me as I turn around i see the room looking exactly the same as we had left it and my knees go weak and I slide down the door, my head in my hands as I break down after about half an hour I pull myself back up to my feet and I walk over to the desk to see a letter with my name on it, I pick it up and I open it

My dearest y/n
if you are reading this I'm not here with you and for that I'm sorry, I never got to tell you how much you meant to me and how you changed my life. You had given me a reason to live, the first time I had seen you I had said to Tom that you would be the woman I married and the mother to my children and he laughed saying that I would be so lucky. I knew you were my soulmate. Your the most beautiful, loving, caring and kind person I've ever met. I want you to go and live your life to the fullest my darling. Please don't be sad that I'm not here with you, I'll be waiting just behind the moon for you.
I love you
Your soulmate
Mattheo Riddle xxxx

I walk over to the cupboard and I grab a bottle of whiskey and I sit on the bed on Theos side, it smells just like him, I open the bottle and I drink as much as I can before I gag on the taste, all I want is to feel numb so I don't have to feel this pain of him being gone, I place the letter on the bed side table with the now quarter empty bottle and I cry into the pillow as I lay on the bed. My head starts to feel heavy it's either from the drink or the amount I've cried but I fall asleep with his smell all around me.

'I'll always be here' I hear in my head 'I promise' 'will you be tho' I reply my mind is black and I know it's coming though my head not my ears 'yes I will' he replies and I don't reply back, I know it's not theo but the voice is his. My mind plays back to the moments before he falls and again I'm stuck watching as he falls over the edge, I see his face for the last time as he takes his last breathes. I bolt up breathing heavy and look to the side as I see something right next to me. My eyes go wide as I throw my self off of the bed into his arm 'your really here' I cry 'I promise' Theo says 'but..but how' I asked confused 'you saved me, the cpr thing worked but I was stuck in the hospital wing, everyone is looking for you' he replies but instead of moving to leave he pulls me tight to him 'I heard draco and Tom talking they said he was dead and everything will change' I say into his chest 'well they would of been taking about Voldemort' Theo answers back and I pull away from his chest 'what, Harry did it' I question 'yes, Harry did it love, it's all over' he pulls me back to him and he lifts me and spins us around in circles.

Days have passed and the teachers have more or less repaired hogwarts, today is the day we leave hogwarts and it's sad to think this will be the last time we are here. All of us have packed our bags and now we are heading out of the main doors to catch our train, we were all marked for work instead of taking our o.w.l.s and all of us passed, the ministry were rounding up all of the death eaters that escaped, all of the deatheaters under the age for 18 where left alone as they knew we hadn't had a chose in the matter. Theo runs up behind me as me and Pansy are talking to our friends and once he was there we started to leave, me and theo were last walking and we held hands, as we got to the bridge I stopped and half turned to look at the castle and I turned my head to see theo also doing the same thing, he looked at me and we both turned and started to walk again. I didn't know what we would do next or what all our life's would hold but I know as long as Theos by my side I can do anything I put my mind to.