IF WE HAD TODAY

PRESENT TIME 1

Thinking about our memories hurt my soul. I miss you terribly. There's never a day goes by that I don't think about you. I always wonder how you are doing. Whenever I try to not remember, I seem to hurt even more. I wish I could see you tonight. Just for a minute, just for a second even.

I wish I could talk to you now, maybe when you see me you'll realize you still want me. Maybe you'll see that you only said those words because you want me to hate you.

How badly I want to hear your voice. How badly I want to see your smile again.

I turn on my computer and navigate to our old videos together.

We look so happy in these photos, how could you not see how happy you are with me? How could you choose to turn your back to me?

I see you everywhere because I choose to see you everywhere. I close my eyes I see you. I fall asleep thinking of you and when I wake up, I still feel you. I think I'm losing my mind because I turn around at times when I think I hear you calling me.

I knew it was a mistake to feel this way. I knew it.

My head was screaming so loud but I chose to shut it down because for once in my life I decided to follow what my heart was whispering. You. Your name. Your face. Your soul.

Please.. Please.. Please.. Come back to me.. TO US..