Sen Cal Kapimi: a different road to

I do it because I love you

The next day...

Serkan and I had fallen asleep on the couch together after he had made us dinner talked. Last night had been exhausting for both of us. We had woken up shocked to be in each other's arms and almost as soon as I woke up I ran to the bathroom to throw up last night's dinner. Serkan held my hair back as I threw up everything inside of me for what seemed like hours. "It's okay Eda" he said as he rubbed circles on my back. It felt very comforting and that was something I didn't want to feel from him again, so I immediately fled afterward. Last night brought a lot of memories and feelings back and it wasn't doing me any good to keep lingering in the past. Serkan and I had broken and weren't together. We are going to co-parents, but that's it. I had come into the office and immediately bumped into Efe. "Sorry Efe". "That's okay Eda. Something on your mind". Only Serkan I thought and our baby. "No, nothing at all. "Can we discuss our upcoming project?" "Sure, Efe. Would you like to do it now?" "Yes, if you have the time". "Off course". We walked over to my desk and he sat down next to me. As we discussed our project I could feel Serkan's eyes on us. I even looked up at him a few times to see him watching us with a clenched jaw. When we were finished, I went to grab some tea in the breakroom. Suddenly Serkan walks in with an angry look on his. "What the hell was that Eda?" "What do you mean?" "You were conversing very closely with Efe. Are you forgetting that you are carrying my baby!" I shushed him. "Can you keep it down! We haven't told anyone yet, specifically our family". "Well than you shouldn't be flirting with him. With any man for that matter". "Serkan, I can do what I want. I might be carrying Our child, but that doesn't mean you're my keeper. We are not together, so I can do whatever I want with whomever I want and if that person happens to be Efe, then so be it. Get over your jealousy Serkan. You broke up with me, so you have no rights to judge me" and with that I walked out of the room.

Later that night...

Despite our fight, Serkan had reminded me of something. We hadn't told our family yet about the baby and I knew it was time. So earlier I had sat down my aunt and friends and told them about the pregnancy. They were surprised and were wondering if Serkan and I were back together. I told them we weren't, but we were going to raise the baby together. My aunt was especially upset. She wondered how I was going to go to Italy now and finish school. I told her not to worry about it, because I would all figure it out. Also the idea of me not being married and having a baby upset her. Specifically because it is with Serkan and she isn't particularly fond of him. Eventually she walked out of the room, needing a moment to herself. The girls left soon after as well. And here I was walking in the center of town looking for some food. I was having a craving for fried chicken. Damn these pregnancy cravings. I walked right through the park were Serkan and I used to walk in with Sirius. And where I had also run in to them a few times. And as if it was faith, I see Sirius running towards me. "Hey boy" I say as I crouch down before him. I start scratching him as he is wagging his tail. "Sirius where did you go?" I hear Serkan say as he rounds the corner and sees us. "He just wanted some attention from the person he loves most" I say as I stand up. We both look at each other in silence. Awkwardly still from the fight this morning. "I'm sorry" we both say at the same time and we immediately laugh. "I shouldn't have yelled at you. You're pregnant and shouldn't be stressing and I just made it worse". "Thank you". I give him a small smile. "What are you doing out here?" he says as we walk through the park. "I just needed some alone time. I told my aunt and friends about the pregnancy". "How did that go?" "Not amazingly. My friends were fine, but my aunt was pretty upset". "It was because of me right?" "Well, not just you. She also doesn't like that my Italian plans are pushed back again and she's worried about me finishing school". "Are you worried about those things too?" "Not really. I don't really care about those things as much, because I know it will work out in the end. All I care about right now is the baby" I say as I put my hands on my stomach. Serkan smiles at my words. "We will both make sure of that. I'll help you with whatever you need". "Well in that case...I really want fried chicken". Serkan laughs at that. "Eda no. You need to eat healthy for the baby". "But please. The baby wants chicken and you just said that you would help with the baby, so please" I say as I pout at him. "Eda. Eda. Stop looking at me like that". I don't. "Okay, fine. Let's go get some fried chicken. But you'll also have a salad". I roll my eyes at him. "Okay. As long as you'll eat some fried chicken". "Eda, you know I don't eat that kind of food". "Well you have to or I won't eat the salad" I say folding my arms. "Okay fine, I'll have a little bit of chicken". I smile triumphantly. "I hope our child takes after me. Then you will be forced to eat 'delicious' food more often" I smile. "I hope our child does too Eda. I hope it does".