Sen Cal Kapimi: a different road to

Let's be honest

The next day...

Since hearing the news about my parents' death I felt empty. After Selin had dropped her bomb and heard ours in return she left. Serkan tried explaining himself. He told me what had happened to my parents and that his father was responsible. He tried to rush after me, when I went to confront his father. He showed up when I had already said my peace to his father. He tried to stop me from leaving, saying I was in no state to drive and to think about the baby, but I couldn't. I had to get out of there and away from anything Bolat related. When I went home I just sat in my room and cried, looking at pictures of my parents and I. Later that evening I told my aunt, who burst out crying as well. She too was angry with the Bolats for keeping this secret. My aunt could see what a wreck I was and that was how I ended up in an American style diner with my friends. They tried to cheer me up with some of my favorite food: French toast. Specifically since I had gotten pregnant, I seemed to have a craving for it. But even this couldn't bring my mood up. "Eda, are you okay?" Ceren asked. "Your aunt asked us to take you out and cheer you up, but we don't actually know what's going on. Is this about Serkan?" Again tears welled in my eyes. "Sort of". I broke down crying and told them what I had learned the day before. Pouring my heart and thoughts out for them.

The next day...

After one more night of pitying myself, I finally found some of my strength again. I knew I couldn't keep waddling in pain. I had to carry on, not just for myself, but also for the baby. The pain of losing my parents would never disappear, but being miserable wouldn't change the circumstance that they're dead. With newly found confidence I walked into Serkan's office. He immediately sprung out of his seat. "Eda, how are..." But I cut him off, by placing the engagement ring into his palm. "Now are business is done. Our fraud of an engagement or whatever it was is gone. I'm done with you and I'm done with ART life. I'm cutting all ties. From now on we will only discuss the baby and we will see each other only with doctor's appointments" with that I walk away out of the office. "Eda. Eda!" I can hear him calling after me, but I don't stop. Once I'm outside I take a deep breath, shocked at myself from doing that. I'm about to walk over to the car, when all of a sudden I'm bombarded by journalists screaming questions at me. Apparently they know about the baby. Everything from the past two days washes over me and all of a sudden I can feel myself slipping into darkness, but not before I feel myself being caught by someone.

When I wake up, I find myself in Serkan's car. He looks at me and I smile at him, still drowsy from sleep. All of a sudden everything comes back and I immediately sit up. "How did they know about the baby?" I ask. "I've no idea". "Oh, I have a feeling alright. We only told one person, outside from our family". "You mean Selin?" "Yes, of course I mean her. Who else would it be? She was the only who knew and you know that she doesn't like me". "Well, whoever did it, I'll find out. I promise you that Eda". "Your promises are worthless" and with that I turn my head towards the window and look at the scenery passing by, fighting to keep the tears at bey.

A few days later...

I was helping Ayden with her fashion show-benefit gala. Since the first time I was with her at the club, she had somehow roped me into helping her. She said this would most definitely make her the chairman for the country club. So here I was helping her once more. We had to hang up the decorations and move around the tables and chairs in order for it to be perfect tonight. I had just climbed onto a ladder when Serkan walked into the room. Great, did he have to come and help as well. "Eda?! What are you doing get down from that ladder right now!" "What? I'm just helping your mother with the decorations". "You shouldn't do that in your condition. What if you fell?" "Serkan" I sighed. "I'm being careful. Just because I'm pregnant, doesn't mean I can't do anything". I continued on with the decorations and I could feel Serkan watching me with a clenched jaw. After hanging one up, I had to come down to move the ladder for the next one. When I almost fell Serkan had, had enough. "Hear let me just do it". He grabbed the ladder out of my arm. "Serkan I'm fine. Is there something I'm allowed to do?" I say with irritation in my voice. "Well, you can't carry the tables and the chairs, because that could be dangerous too". "So, what am I supposed to do?" He just shrugged. "Fine, I'll finish up on some work. The sooner this project is finished, the sooner I can leave ART Life for good" I replied smugly. I walked over to the couch and grabbed my sketchbook. The sooner I finished these sketches, the better.

A little while later I was shaken awake by Serkan and Ayden. "Did you finish?" I asked him. "Yes, everything is all done for tonight". "How long was I asleep for?" "About two hours". "Sorry, I didn't help out more" I said to Ayden. "Don't be, you have the most important job of all. Taking care of my grandson" she said as she put a hand on my stomach. "You must have been exhausted". "I suppose with everything that's going on lately". I look at Serkan and see that he looks sad. "Well, I suppose I should get ready for the event" I say as I get up from the couch. As soon as I've made it up, my face contorts in pain. "Are you okay?" Serkan and Ayden ask immediately. "Yes, just a cramp, but it's gone now". "Are you sure?" Serkan asks, putting a hand on my bump. "Yes, I'm sure".

Later that evening...

I arrived at the event and marveled at how it looked. All the hard work that was put in to it had payed of. "You look beautiful. How are you feeling?" Serkan asked. "I'm fine" which was a lie. I had been having a few more cramps, but I figured it was just the stress from the past few days. We just stared at each other awkwardly. "I should go see if your mother needs help". I turn around to walk away. Serkan grabs my hand and stops me. I turn around looking at him puzzled. "Would you like to have dinner with me tonight? After this?" I sigh. "Serkan, I thought I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with you, unless it's about the baby". "We can talk about the baby, then" he says smugly. "Serkan" I let out a little laugh. "Please, just think about it?" "I'll think about it. Now, I really have to see if your mother needs help".

When I go to Ayden, she tells me that the models haven't shown up. Apparently someone told them they weren't needed anymore. I offered that the girls could probably model the clothes, but she insisted that I did as well. I wasn't completely comfortable with it, since the dress wouldn't hide my bump. Then everyone would now I was pregnant and no one in the office knew, besides Selin. Luckily, I'm up last, so I have time to gather some courage. When I hear my queue I take a deep breath and I walk down the stairs towards the crowd. I can hear people gasp in shock at seeing my baby bump. I try not to let it affect me. Luckily, before I know it, it is over. I get a text from Serkan saying if I still want to meet. I text him yes and he gives me an address. I get changed into my own clothes and go over to the restaurant. I'm surprised when I learn at the door that Serkan isn't there yet. I sit at the table waiting for him. After an hour I decide it's time to go. I feel stupid for even showing up. When I leave I feel the cramps again and I decide that I should get home fast so I can relax. But before I can even make it out the door, the world turns black.