Fortunately Unfortunate - Harry Styles

2-Clueless Cole

A few weeks or so go by and I am slowly adjusting to this new lifestyle. Not only am I starting to get the hang of things, but my family and friends are so supportive. They are always checking in on me especially my best friend Rebecca.

Rebecca

Hey girl how you doing today?
Thinking about you a lot.

Tiffany

Hi! I am doing okay
getting the hang of things
more and more.

Good! I cannot wait
to see you soon for Harry's
concert. We coming for
you Harryyyyy!!!

YES! I absolutely cannot
wait we are going to
have so much fun!
I gotta run but I
will chat with you later!

:) <3

She is the best. It sucks that I live in Socal and she's in Norcal, but we facetime as much as possible and text all day.

The only thing now is...my boyfriend, Cole. We have been together for 4 years, basically since senior year of high school, and have been great friends for 6 years. He is one of my best friends and I love him dearly. As much as this whole situation sucks I have been trying to make the best of it, regardless of the frustrations and breakdowns that have come along with it. However, my boyfriend doesn't seem to be adjusting nearly as well and it's not even his problem.
Cole is a good guy but there's one thing he's never been very good at, and that's words.

He's never been able to truly explain to me what I mean to him. Instead he shows me, which for a while I loved, who wouldn't? But that gets old. Sometimes I just want words of affirmation, but he's not quite the best at that and never has been. Something I settled for since he is such a nice and caring friend to me.

"Want to go grab KFC? I know you love your mashed potatoes" He says while texting some friends on his phone.

I give him a minute to process what he just said. When he says nothing I pipe in, trying to keep my cool. Mind you, we never fight. Ever. Any time there is a disagreement we just kind of brush past it and pretend it never happened. Unhealthy I know, but arguments cause me severe anxiety and I would rather just not deal with it.

"I uh, I don't think I am ready for that carb-heavy of a meal yet," I say with some disappointment in my voice. Not only was I disappointed I didn't feel ready to try and manage my sugars with that many carbs, but I also was disappointed he didn't think about how healthy I have been trying to eat, staying away from carbs.

"Oh, that's right, sorry. Then what do you want?"

"I can maybe get some Chick-fil-a grilled nuggets...I know they only have like 2g of carbs since it's grilled. Is that okay?" I ask with hesitation knowing he is not a fan of the busyness of this place.

"Sure that's fine I guess. Ready then?" He asks as he grabs his keys to head over.

I grab my purse and we enjoy our dinner and evening. I try to move past it, that he completely disregarded the fact that I am trying to eat a low-carb diet, as blood sugars are easier to manage on a low-carb diet. I knew eventually I could eat whatever I wanted, just had to inject enough insulin to cover the carbs but I wasn't ready for that. He should know that. I shake myself out of it, knowing it was probably just a mindless mistake on his part and that things would get better...won't they?

My thoughts are interrupted when I hear him ask, "Wanna grab some ice cream?"

Did he really just ask that? I've explained to him that not only do sugars/carbs make blood glucose levels rise but so does dairy...and ice cream is both of those things. I look at him with an almost blank stare processing what he just asked me.

"Uh no, I am good thanks...feel free to get yourself some though" I offer just trying to be nice.

"Oh, alright I'll head over in that direction but let me know if you change your mind".

As we head over I am just staring out the window wondering what the heck could be going through his mind. Does he not care that I am trying really hard to change my eating habits? Is he just trying to make things as normal as possible? I don't know what to think.