My Abusive Youtuber Boyfriend (Slow Updates)

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Just want to say happy 15k on this book, thank you for the wonderful votes and comments. Honestly, I am very thankful.

Even tho I come and go, I watch this book grow with my own eyes. It still amazes me how loyal people can be to sit patiently and wait. I still feel bad about breaking away from you guys, but in the end I'll always come back one way or another.

I know this book started off exciting, I was very happy and hype while writing such a story(due to my use of profanity every second).  I want to be mature about this book, it was fun and games at first but it's time to take it to a different level. How can I pursue a book based off an abusive relationship, and not take it seriously? I mean, i was taking it seriously but it just didn't feel appropriate.

During my time away, I was in so many manipulative situations with relationships.. even before this book was created I witnessed the damage of abusive relationships, and still do now; as myself has been through them. I really wrote this book to express the trauma in relationships, and to tell how they happen, how to spot it, how to know, and more so of the real reality of what goes on behind closed doors. I did this book out to escape the pain and let it out. I did not make this to romanticize anything.. I was going through rough times at the moment of writing this. I hated life for writing this book because I felt as if people would hate me. I don't want that.. I've learned a lot as I grew, and sadly I'm able to understand the trauma personally.

So I ask you while you read this, and if you're struggling in abusive relationship... Is the relationship really worth it when it's only going to hurt you physically and mentally?

I beg you, please find you're way out. You are better than you are when you are yourself. You are better than this person who likes to manipulate you into thinking things. You are better than the person who hurts you. You are better to be yourself than someone trying to hide you. Read that again.

I genuinely love each and every one of you, and I love BTS just as much too.

This book was not meant to offend anyone.. it's just a silly ship, and a story that talks about abuse. Yes, I do love Taehyung and I know he would never hurt anyone. This book was not meant to make any of the members look bad. I never intended on that while making it. All of the boys are sweethearts and love each other dearly. THIS BOOK ISNT REAL!!!

Even if the ships aren't real or they are, shipping was fun, but I just hope that I don't make anyone uncomfortable. I stopped shipping people after a long time, it just got to the point where people told me it was creepy. So I dropped it. I never thought the ships were real but, I enjoyed thinking and doing conspiracy theories. I had fun, that's all that matters.

I don't know if this book will be my last when I finish it. I don't know if I will create other ship books. If you genuinely want me to consider on doing more, I gladly will. In the meantime i do have another book out, I'm not sure if I want to advertise on this page, because this is an important page. So, I'm not going to. Just know it's out there on a different account and it's not ship related.

Anywho, I hope you read what I said. Thank you for reading, I love you.

And if you're going through anything, and are considering it,

Please contact this number

National Domestic Violence Hotline
1 (800) 799 – 7233

National Teen Dating Abuse Hotline
1 (866) 331 – 9474
Text: 22522

Strong Hearts Native Helpline 
1 (844) 762 – 8483

National Sexual Assault Hotline
1 (800) 656-4673

Department of Defense (DOD) Safe Helpline for Sexual Assault
1 (877) 995 – 5247

Child Abuse Hotline
1 (800) 422 – 4453

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-8255

Please be safe everyone, I love you, I purple you all.