History Class

16 - confessions

A/N: Your guys comments are sooooo soo funny, I actually love them so much.
I start dying whenever I read them <3 makes the chapters 10x better.
Also sorry if there's any mistakes.

"Hey, Oscar!" I pick up my pace to meet his. "Is there any way I could switch rooms?"

"Why?" he gives me a questioning look.

"My roommate and I have had a misunderstanding."

"You're going to have to be more specific."

I scream at myself internally.

"She threw an egg at me?"

Oscar stops in his tracks and looks over at me. He examines my wet hair from the shower I just took to get the egg off me.

"I don't know if I could rearrange anything with such short notice."

"She can stay in my room tonight, just until you found somewhere else." A voice says from behind us.

I turn to see Noah. Are you kidding me right now?

"Uhhh, we can't really have three people in a room so...Ah! How about you guys swap rooms for tonight and we can arrange something else tonight."

"Yes, please! thank you!" I squeal.

"Well-" Noah tries to but in. This obviously wasn't what he had in mind. "Can we talk Millie?" Noah asks.

"Sure."

Noah and I walk up to the beach shore and take a seat on the sand.

For a few minutes, we just sit in silence and listen to the waves crashing against the bank.

I love beaches.

"Did I do something wrong?" he asks.

I can feel his gaze on the side of my face.

"What do you mean?" I look down at the sand and start to fiddle with the shells.

"I feel like you've been avoiding me lately, everything was great but now you just seem so uncomfortable whenever I'm around."

"Because I am," I just gonna straight up with him.
"What? How?"

I take a deep breath of the ocean air and sigh.

"Why are you even here Noah? I understand that we were really close growing up but we were kids? I'm genuinely so grateful for everything you and your family did for me trust me but I don't know.

Noah I left. I left all of that behind. I moved and I left my past behind. Noah, you're a part of that past, you weren't supposed to search the states for me. Which is already extremely weird may I add.

I thought it would be fine that you came back but after a while, you started getting weird and saying strange remarks toward me. So yeah, I'm uncomfortable around you."

I look up and make eye contact with him.

"But I thought we were okay? The night you stayed over and on the date...I thought we were making progress! Now I'm sorry what I say affects you that much but I only do it because I like you. I really like you Mils"

I shiver at his words.
Is he being for real.
Can he even hear himself right now?

"You're not the same boy you were when we were fourteen Noah," I laugh "You changed, which is completely understandable but I would really like to think of that boy I knew when I was fourteen who was my best friend, or someone who could brighten my shitty days,  or also my neighbor who I completely fell for and not, well, not you now."

His breathing becomes slow and intense.

"Wow, that's a lot to take in. I never thought about it like that."

I stand up slowly.

"Have a good trip, Noah."
"Wait!" Noah grabs my wrist. "I'll back off, I promise. Friends?"

I pull my wrist away and keep walking.

As I walk away tears form in my eyes. Although it does feel good to get all that off my shoulders I can't help but think about the fact that the person I just walked away from is the boy who used to eat cucumber sandwiches with me in his backyard giggling about god knows what.

Woah. I've hardly gone one day on my senior beach trip and all of this happened.

Maybe it's a good thing that I cleared my mind, now I can just enjoy my time.

~~~

I knock on the door of the new room I'm staying in.

"Oh, yeah Oscar told me about the re-arrangement."

I forgot Noah and Jake shared a room.
Jake opens the door wider and lets me walk inside.

"Good start to the trip?" He asks
"You could call it that," slowly I slump down onto a bed.

"That's my bed Mils,"
I groan and flop my way onto the floor and crawl to my suitcase.

I open it and lay the bikini I'm going to wear tomorrow next to my bed.
An arm goes past my head and I see Jake pointing at something.
I look down and realise he's pointing at the lavender bikini he bought me.

"You brought it here?" He chuckles.
"Why wouldn't I?" I say as I quickly close my suitcase.

Quietly I hear him walk behind me and lay on his bed.
I look over my shoulder to see him opening a book, the same one he was reading earlier.

"You read?"
A small hum comes from him but he doesn't take his eyes away from the page.

"Did you hear about the party tomorrow night? It's held by some teenagers in the town just down the road. If you don't wanna go I can stay here with you?" He finally peeps out.

A party?
I already know it won't go well but I think I can take a little more drama.

"No let's go to it."
"If you say so."

~~~
I wake up to yelling and the sound of shuffling feel from outside my door.
I turn over to see Jake missing from his bed.

When I open my door my view is blocked by almost everyone who came on the beach trip.
I shuffle my way to the front where Jake and Noah are on top of each-other fighting.

Oh my god, not this again.
Why are boys so fucking stupid. Can they not go 2 days without violence.
You know what, I'll just let them do their thing, their fault if they die.

Many as punches are thrown and I can't help but giggle a little bit.
"WOAH WOAH, STOP" Oscar comes pushing through the crowd to stop the fight.

I was kind of enjoying the show.
"What's going on here, it's supposed to be a good trip" Oscar complains.

Jake wipes the blood from his mouth.
"If you'll excuse me I have to get ready to go to the beach," Jake replies while walking through our room door.