ventbook idk man

bruh if only i didnt exist 🤣🤣🤣

just somethin that's been on my mind lately yk

everyday feels the same n it all blends to numbness and boredom

I wake up n go to school n hang W my friends there and then I go home n rot in bed all day with so many things I wanna do but I can't like I wanna go out n be a teen!!!

I wanna bake W someone or like collect frogs n go collect shells on the beach and make matching necklaces (u don't have to wear em but I will 🤣🤣) or have a rainy Picknic or even just go out on a simple walk and take about some deep shit!!!

my mom n dad always try n encourage to go out n do some crazy shit!!!! but ion think anyone wants to do crazy shit w me

cuz like I don't wanna do shit alone like I actually wanna hang and socialize and laugh W people!!!!!

I'm too scary to ask n I don't think any of my friends aren't up to goin out

and I mean sure, chilling at home isn't bad I really enjoy it too but I'm getting oh so tired and bored and numb W doin the same things for the past like 6 years

I'm gettin older too and I feel like I'm wasting my teen years just doing nothing all day

tbh all I really want is like a really close homie who's always down to do some silly stuff no matter what but also sometimes needs sum space too yk

so yea