u ever jus look at some old messages or old vents/notes and think "man I was so different why was I like that" but then I think that Hey atleast I'm better than I used to be!
looking at my 9ld messages with a friend I barely see anymore is so fucning strange... like I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO SOCIALISE FOR SHIT
AND ALSO LIKE I NEVER ANSWERED QUESTIONS AND I WAS ALWAYS ME AND UNIRONICALLY USED TO SAY UWU AND SHIT LIKE JESUS WHY WAS I LIKE THAT ONG
AND I USED TO HAVE SO MANY MEMORIES W MY FRIEND WE WERE LIKE BSTIES FOR SHIT BUT NOW I HAVENT EVEN HUNG OUT W THEM FOR 2 YEARS
I feel lowkey bad for em tho cuz I was so cringe and weird but hey they were weird too but I thought they were cool tbh like genuinely
I used to be so self degrading 😬😬 like I'd mention my insecurities at every moment (I was secretly fishing for compliments ik me 4 years ago was a complete psycho)
qtleast I'm better now tho but yea
tbh I still miss them cuz I genuinely felt like I could be ME yk???? and we had like the same ideas and thoughts and shit and moat of the time we'd be down for anything
if only I didn't mess up and wasn't so toxic then they wouldve been the 1 homie i need in life
I feel like I treated them so badly and I feel so guilty about that everyday and I don't know how to do shit
YOU ARE READING
ventbook idk man
Randomstupid or dramatique I gotta let my thoughts out somehow yk 😜😆💪 don't like don't read ty man I love u mwah I don't have a poetic ass so yea
