ventbook idk man

unlucky day 2 ‼️‼️😖

ok so shit got even worse

so I got put in a group project w someone I don't know v well (they're chill but I don't like that yk)

N MY FRIENDS DIDNT CHOOSE ME CUZ IM SO UNPRODUCTIVE APPARENTLY

BUT THE THING IS I DONT UNDERSTAND SHIT AND EVEN IF I DO MY WORK THEYRE DISSAPOINTED ABOUT IT AND TALK SHIT ABOUT ME AND HOW IM SO INCOMPETENT AND USELESS AND IM SO TIRED I WANT TO RUN AWAY I DONT WANNA TALK WITH THEM ANYNORE THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT ME AND IM ALWAYS THE FRIEND THAT IS THE BULLY VICTIM LIKE THERES ALWAYS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME AND NOT THE OTHERS AND IM STARTING TO GROW TIRED OF IT LIKE WHY CANT I TEASE YOU? WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME? WHAT WRONG WITH ME? WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO TO STOP BEING TEASED? IM SO TIRED IM SO TIRED IM SO FUCKING TIRED I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I WANNA DISSAPEAR AND NEVER RETURN THIS WORLD IS FUCKING SHIT LIKE IF YOURE NOT NORMAL, YOURE NOT HUMAN, YOU SHOULD CHANGE, YOU DONT DESERVE US, YOU DONT DESERVE ANY FRIENDS, NOBODY LOVES YOU, YOU SHOULD DIE I FUCKING HATE LIVING TODAY I WANT TO DIE SO FUCKING BADLY BUT I CANT I FUCNING CANT I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW AND I DONT WANT MY FAMILY TO BE SAD ESP MY MOM CUZ SHES ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT ME N SHIT I WANT NEW FRIENDS SO BADLY THAT ARE NOT LIKE THIS AT ALL LIKE I JUST WANT SOME HOMIES THAT ARE CHILL AND STILL BULLY AS A JOKE BUT DONT GO TOO FAR YK AND HAVE A FEW WEIRD INTERESTS LIKE PLEASE THATS ALL IM ASKING FOR BUT I NEVER GET SHIT WHEN WILL THINGS EVER GO MY WAY? IVE NEVER GOTTEN THE THINGS IVE WANTED IN LIFE LIKE I STILL HAVE NOTHING AND I STILL AM NOTHING BUT AN INCOMPETENT AND USELESS EMPTY SHELL WHO STAYS IN THEIR ROOM ALL DAY HOPING THAT THEY DIE IN THEIR SLEEP SOON BUT I NEVER DO AND THEN I CRY AND THE NEVERENDING CYCLE OF NUMBNESS AND BOREDOM AND LONELINESS STARTS AGAIN TBH NONE OF MY CURRENT FRIENDS ARENT EVEN TRUELY FRIENDS LIKE THEY ALL HAVE INSIDE JOKES AND DO SHIT TOGETHER THAT I NEVER KNEW AND I FEEL SO LONELY KNOWING THAT ILL NEVER BE CLOSE TO SOMEONE CAUSE ALL I DO IS NOTHING CAUSE IM FUCKING NOTHING WERE ONLY FRIENDS AT SCHOOL BUT OUTSIDE OF THAT WERE FUCKING STRANGERS WHO SHARE LAUGHTERS AND EVEN WHEN I DO INTICIATE SHIT LIKE ASKING EM TO HANG OUT NONE OF TAKE ME SERIOUSLY OR JUST IGNORE ME FUCK THEM FUCK EVERONE WHERE ARE ALL THE COOL PEOPLE THE COOL HOMIES SOMEONE BETYER THAN THESE PEOPLE

btw I saw my hallway crushes again 😍😍

alr byee 🤪‼️‼️