Child Of Stardust || TAEKOOK ✔️

8

Terminate the pregnancy...

I didn't like the sound of it. I hated the fact that someone was compelled to follow it and end a life even before it could see the world. I understand if someone has to go through the abortion but not willingly doing that was just simply heart breaking.

The lady was long gone into the ER and I was left in thoughts. There was a baby in front of me playing with their parents; a life to be started however on the other hand a life was to be ended in the ER. That messed up my mind way more than before.

I just wanted Jimin and uncle to come as soon as possible so that I could leave the hospital. The smell was nauseating indeed.

"Excuse me?"

I looked up to the owner of the voice, a nurse. She was dressed in the hospital uniform, particularly for the nurses, I've noticed. She was wearing a matching mask too.

"Are you family of any patient here?"

I was about say yes but that's when my stomach did a weird churning and suddenly all the breakfast wanted to come out of my mouth. So I just shook my head to avoid further questions and to get to the bathroom at the earliest.

"This sitting place is close to the ER and meant for the family of the patients only. Could you please shift to the place over there..thanks"

No sooner had she left after my nodding, I rushed towards the bathroom and got into one of the stalls immediately.

I vigorously emptied my stomach, absolutely feeling disgusted and helpless by this sudden occurence of my throwing up session. I felt so horrible and tired. The tears rolling down on my cheeks weren't helping either. I didn't even realise I was crying until I was out to wash my hands and looked at the mirror in front.

Fortunately the bathroom was empty while I was busy washing my wasted face. I didn't know what to feel. I felt numb yet overwhelmed with so many unknown emotions. I wanted to cry my heart out yet remain strong for everything. Instead, I felt weak. So weak that it was hard for me to walk even.

I heard the main door being opened and quickly dried my face to look at least presentable. The person who just entered, came to stand beside me to use the basin.

I didn't pay any attention though, busy drowning in my own misery. Just at that moment my phone started vibrating inside my pocket. I took it out to see Jimin calling me.

"Hello?"

"Tae, where are you?"

"Bathroom. Are you done?"

"Yeah. I'm done talking to the doctor. We can take uncle home. I'll be waiting for you at the parking lot. Is that okay?"

"Sounds good. See you there"

The call was cut short. I needed to pick myself up quickly. I looked at the mirror again. It felt as if it was mocking me. The slight red and puffy eyes and surely flushed cheeks. Yep, anyone could tell I wasn't at my best. Nope, not at all.

I only wanted to go home and be under my duvet, away from the outside world. This overwhelming feeling was just messing me up continuously. I wanted to sleep just to feel at peace and never wake up again.

I've been searching for something, something so close to me yet felt far. I had no idea what it was but I craved for it. I craved for it as the earth craves for its moon everyday, every second to melt into the darkness. I didn't like this feeling, this uncertainty was only making me weaker and I felt like dying slowly.

"You're an idiot! Do you know that?!"

I couldn't speak. It felt as if someone choked me with their invisible hands and my voice was dying inside my throat. The only sound I was able to produce was my meek sobs which I of course didn't want to be heard.

I didn't want to appear as someone weak and helpless in front of him. But that's exactly how I was being. Pathetic.

"Taehyung, are you even listening?"

How did he know my name? Did he notice me in the class? But I've never seen him talking to anyone in the class.. Then how can he talk to me like this? With so much authority..as if he's someone close to me?

I felt dizzy. I didn't know why. Upcoming tears blurred vision but I managed to wipe them with my sleeves. I needed to focus on the puppy. His paw was still bleeding and it was hard for me look at his situation.

"I'm talking to you"

He came closer, I felt his presence right behind me. But I didn't look at him and continued to bandage the puppy's paw. I was sitting in the middle of a dim lighted alley, desperately trying to help the helpless animal.

The puppy was a lot more quite now after I was done with his bandages. I tried to stand up holding the little one in my hands but failed miserably. I think he heard my hissing and knelt down beside me. Before I could register what was happening he lifted me up with the puppy which immediately caused me to hold his nape and shoulder with one hand.

"Jungkook! What are you doing?! Put me down!"

An unknown gasp left my mouth and my eyes widened for sure. He just couldn't pick me up all of a sudden as if I weighed a feather!

"Jungkook please! Put me down! I'll fall!"

"Shut your mouth Taehyung"

He didn't listen to me and started walking. He already had my bag slung across his shoulder that I didn't notice before.

I had to gather all my courage to speak again. Even though it hurt to talk.

"For fuck's sake Jungkook! Just because I slept with you, doesn't mean you can talk to me with that tone of authority! It was just a one night stand! It meant nothing! Leave me alone!"

I tried to scream those words however they came out as whisper yelling and I choked on my sobs too.

Fuck this.

He stopped on his way. Thank God he did. Not gonna lie, I was scared but it was difficult for me to register everything with the pain I felt all over my body.

He looked at me but I was unable to understand his expressions, partially because of the dim light. Was he about to throw me away from his hold? It was so awkward with him holding me in bridal style but I was ready for it. I shut my eyes tight and waited for the ground to touch me. But it never came.

"Taehyung"

He called my name again. For some reason I felt all the stress leaving my body. My name on his lips felt sweeter than honey and I was ready to cross any mountain just to hear it again. But I couldn't let him see how I was about to melt into him. Not after our silent agreement of that night, forgetting it as if nothing happened between us. All that was just actions of mere alcohol.

Did he demand me to speak again? I don't think so. At least not when he could understand it was painful for me to talk even.

"Why did you come to this alley? It's not exactly of the best ones, you know that right?"

His voice faltered and concern latched with it, I felt.

"H-He needed m-my help..they were b-beating him without a-any reason..."

I could barely hear my own voice. It was meek and afraid. Of what I didn't know.

"But you knew they would beat you too if you try to stop them which they did..."

I didn't want to talk after that. My hold onto that puppy only became stronger, not to hurt him.

"But he needed help..they would have killed him.."

I could feel his burning gaze on me but I didn't want to look up at him. So, I just closed my eyes not being able bear the pain anymore. They broke some of my bones or ribs maybe.

"You're an idiot Taehyung. Humans are not like this. They're not self sacrificing. Why are you like this?"

He probably meant I was a weak one, a fool but I didn't have energy to say anything anymore. So I drifted to dreamland in his cozy embrace.