Child Of Stardust || TAEKOOK ✔️

30

"Hey hey Tae.. what happened?"

Jimin's voice was faint when I suddenly jolted up, panting. My eyes were still closed, both hands pressed against my ears to prevent any chaotic sound or maybe something else? What was with the dream? Why did it feel too real? Who was the boy? Why couldn't I see his face? Was he one of my imaginary characters too? And Hara...she seemed way too real to be my imagination. Was I supposed to feel like this? But if I was taking my medications all correctly, it should have gone away right? Why did I feel so frustrated then?

So many questions yet the same old answer. Nothing. I found nothing at all. Jimin was looking at me, worry written on his face, when I looked up at him.

Wait

I was in Jimin's apartment? How? The last thing I remembered was being at my work.. then getting fired and...and..

What happened then?

He was right. I was sick afterall. I couldn't even remember how did I end up here.

"Tae? Are you okay? Are you hurt somewhere? Tell me.. I'm worried.."

"No.."

My voice was monotonous. I could feel. I didn't know if my answer was for his first or second question. Because both had the same answer. Was I okay? No. Was I hurt somewhere? Also no..

"Oh my God Tae! You made me so worried! I rushed to your work when your boss called me, telling me you fainted..!"

I frowned. I fainted? In work? Why couldn't I remember that?

"I got fired.."

I decided not to tell him anything about my dreams or feeling them too real. He'd have the same answer anyway. Maybe he couldn't understand me? I didn't blame him for that. Maybe I was really sick.. someone sick in head..

"That's alright. You get to rest more now. Don't worry about it", he smiled.

"But I can't afford to have lost my job in this situation Chim.. how will I survive? Who will give me a job now?!"

I started panicking. It was true though. I was already having a lot on my plate. I possibly couldn't add more.

"Hey I'm here alright? I'll take care of everything. Don't worry. Hm?"

I felt his hand on top of mine, squeezing it gently. He still had the smile on his face. But for some reason I couldn't return it.

"No Chim... I can't let you do that. You're already doing a lot for m-"

"Hey hey calm down Tae"

He must have felt me panicking again. He was already taking care of me. I couldn't let him do more. I just couldn't rely on him completely. He was my best friend yes. But he definitely deserved better, not just get stuck with someone like me.

"You gotta take your medicines now. But before that we have to fill your stomach. God knows what have you been eating in the campus. Those food suck"

He ruffled my hair before getting out of bed, ready to leave the room. I managed to let out a smile this time.

I'm sorry.

What was I apologising for?

And he left. I was alone in the room again. It was Jimin's apartment. I was unaware at the first sight until he informed that he sold his previous house where he used to be with his uncle. I seemed to forget a lot of things, truly, including my own apartment. I didn't remember renting my current apartment or moving out neither Jimin's. That's how sick I was.. I wish I could turn back time to find a cure of this so I didn't have to suffer or make Jimin suffer with me either.

I wish..

It was already night outside. I could see the moon from the small window of the room. Everything was so peaceful that it only made my inner turmoil rise. So, I tried to suppress it as much as I could by looking outside. The moon. The more I looked at it the more I felt as if it was trying to tell me something. Something as if I was already supposed to know..

The moon looks delicious

It did. Delicious? Why did I think of that? I'm not sure if I'd ever think of something like that but why did it feel so familiar? I felt the headache coming back slowly. So I closed my eyes. However it was a futile approach as it was still there. As if trying stop me from something..

The only thing I could remember was a pair of white eyes again from the window that I almost seemed to forget. I wanted to scream when it slowly felt like getting closer but my voice was gone. I could only feel the intensifying throbbing pain in my head which seemed to paralyze my whole body and I couldn't move.

The next thing I knew, I was unconscious again.

This place felt familiar when I opened my eyes to see. Was I here before? I tried to remember but found nothing as usual. I had no intact memory of this place yet my heart seemed to recognise the feeling of being here before..

"You never learn. Do you?"

The voice sounded oddly familiar. So I looked up to the source of it. My heart.. it started running with anticipation when it found familiarity in those eyes too. However they were not looking at me.

"B-but she needed the umbrella more.."

The familiar pair of eyes were looking at the boy in front of him whose back was turned towards me. So I couldn't see his face...which arose a question in me, was this boy familiar to me too? Another character of the fragments of my imagination? Was I simply dreaming? But why did I feel like I was reliving all of this..?

"Come here"

"Uh it's alright Jungkook... I'll just-"

Jungkook... I saw him grabbing the shoulder of the completely drenched boy and dragging him closer under his own umbrella. They were looking at each other intently. Even though I couldn't see the face of the other boy, I could tell. Jungkook's stare held... love? Care? And maybe something more that I was unable to comprehend.

I could feel my heartbeats increasing as the scenarios changed right in front my eyes. What was this feeling? As if some invisible string pulling me towards him.. but I was stuck in my place, unable to move..

"Wasn't it your last bus?"

The place shifted from University entrance to a bus stop where Jungkook was stood with the same boy again. This time also I couldn't see his face. I only saw him nodding his head, standing there with his head down. While Jungkook was looking at him..

"I shouldn't have slept in the library.. I was so tired..."

The boy was still looking down and seemed to talking more to himself yet it was audible. I saw Jungkook slowly going towards the boy with an unreadable expression on his face. And my heart here kept thumping faster..

"Get on my bike"

"No no.. it's fine Jungkook..! I-I'll just... I'll uh-"

"Ta-"

"Tae!"