Child Of Stardust || TAEKOOK ✔️

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Normal. Things were going... normal. As Jimin said. He told me to take all my medications at time and I'd be alright.. like I was before. That's what he told me. His explanation didn't help me much but I didn't want to be rude. The blurry scenarios in my head felt too real to be made up. I would have questioned more, I would have.. only if I had more energy to do so. I was.. exhausted for some reason and nothing seemed to calm me down.

"...Get back home safely. Don't remove your masks and don't forget to sanitize."

The professor said before leaving the classroom. This was the last class of today, thankfully. I already had a headache. But I had to go to work anyway. Jimin was absent today since he was busy with the internship. So I had to take the bus alone. It's not like we went on the same way always but it was nice to be accompanied by him. He made me stay less inside my head otherwise the thoughts got me overwhelmed too much sometimes. It's been what? a couple of weeks maybe? since I started having this kind of circumstances where the lines between my thoughts and reality kept getting blurry. As if I was forced by some unknown aura to tear me apart in both ways.

All the way I kept feeling as if I was being followed but the moment I tried searching for a trace of any human, I couldn't find any. Maybe it was just all in my head. Right. It must be. I should listen to Jimin more and take all my medications properly. Maybe if I do it right, I'd be able to remember each and everything from my past instead of conjuring up the made up scenarios. I hoped.

"Taehyung"

I was working on a red Hyundai when I heard my name being called from under the car. I immediately slid up only to meet a pair of eyes of my boss.

"Yeah?"

Half of my body was still underneath the car since I wasn't done with my work yet. I couldn't understand where my boss was looking at. His eyes were everywhere but me. For some reason he looked quite disturbed? Afraid? I didn't know.

"You don't have to come to work anymore. If I need you, I'll let you know. "

What the actual fuck?

He said those words as if I meant nothing to him. Wasn't I valueable employee here? Why would he do that to me?! I quickly got up ignoring the dirt on my cloths.

"What are you talking about?!"

He was still not looking at me. And I stood there shocked. For a moment I forgot my surroundings. If I don't get paid then how would manage the expenses?! And it was not at all easy to get a job after the pandemic.

"You're fired."

I gasped. How easily he let that out.

"Are you firing me because of the pandemic..?"

He remained silent, not being able to look at me still. Why?

"But I'm one of your most trusted people here! You can't just laid me off like that boss! How will I manage my expenses?! I've been working here for... for...."

I couldn't remember how long I've been working here...

"For? You can't remember. Can you?"

It was my turn to remain silent. Why couldn't I remember? What happened to me?

"Taehyung, you're sick. You need to admit that. I can't have you here anymore.", he sighed.

I was sick? Why? Why did I have so many unanswered questions when I should have found them in my past only? What was stopping me from remembering everything? I thought.. I would go insane if I remain there anymore.

I was not sure when my legs turned their ways from the sudden suffocating place towards somewhere unknown. After having tons of intrusive thoughts when I got back my senses I found myself in a narrow alley. I must have been walking mindlessly to end up here.

After several attempts of finding my way back, I just realised that I was lost. I was lost in the place where I've been staying for years. My brain seemed to block out all the information I'd need now and it felt empty.

"Need help?"

The voice came from nowhere it seemed. The alley was completely empty if I remembered correctly. Then where did it come from? I turned back to look at the shadowy figure behind me. My vision was a bit blurry with a throbbing pain in my head, making me feel dizzy.

"W-who-..."

Because I could continue asking who it was, I blacked out, only registering a pair of unusual white eyes glaring at me.

My surroundings were quite unusual, I could feel that even with my eyes closed. My instincts proved right when I slowly opened my eyes only to meet a place with nothing there. Where was I? Was I dreaming? What was happening..? Yet somehow a feeling of familiarity lingered in the air which was yet to discover right in front of me.

"Catch me Tata! Catch me if you can!"

All of a sudden I heard a fit of laughter running behind me. When I turned to look back there was a whole different scenario from where I was stood. An old, quite familiar living room which seemed to be erased from my memory somehow. The voice I heard was of a girl in her early teenage perhaps following set of giggles from a little boy who looked not more than 6 or 7. They seemed to be happy in each other's presence, unaware of my existence in the picture. Couldn't they see me? Why?

I realised I was actually stuck on my place, not being able to move at all while the scenarios in front of me kept changing.

"Hara! I'll be a superhero and I'll save you from all the bad people in the world!!"

"Okay my superhero but first you have to be strong for that. So you gotta eat a lot of veggies right!"

"Nooo"

It looked like a kitchen where both of them were sat on table while the girl had a playful smile on her face feeding the boy beside her.

My head was dizzy again. What was going on?

"But Hara, they don't like me..."

"Oh my Tata.. it's completely fine.. not everyone in the world would like you, no matter how hard you try.. so you do you! Be you! Who cares about others! Alright?"

They looked older now. The girl still had a joyful smile on her face. However I couldn't be sure with the boy since he was turning his back towards me. I wanted to see his face but I was still stuck at my place. My whole body felt numb at this point.. My heart.. my heart felt heavy too.. why was this happening?

"Tata.. remember.. no matter what happens.. I'll always love you.. always.."

"Hara!-"

"Hara!"