Harmony (H.S.)

Chapter 19 | Confused

19 February 2020

*Harmony James*

So far, the most wealth I've boasted in my life was maybe buying a very expensive guitar for which I've been saving two years... That compared to the life I live now makes me feel ridiculous.

I know it's not my life, I know it's just work and Harry is kind enough to share what he has with me. He could perfectly well travel alone in the jet and we could travel in commercial planes like all other common mortals.

At the moment we are returning to England and Harry is going to perform in several cities and there we are going to travel on a tour bus.

Regarding the tour bus... I'm not sure how to feel. Sarah says it's a lot of fun but sometimes it's too much but as we're only going to be there for a short time it should be fine.

Even though it's been a short time, I'm worried that I won't have anywhere to run... Ok sure it's two buses, at least, and I can always go home if I'm feeling suffocated but I don't know... I get nervous.

I sigh and return to my task. I'm sitting in a secluded area with my computer open editing the photos I've taken recently. Since I was a little girl, I remember taking pictures of everything and loving playing with light and colour and editing. And this hobby and love for photography only grew with me.

It may seem old-fashioned but every year I make an album with the memories of that year with some photos that I select, but I always like to edit them to save everything on my external disk.

"Woooowwww what a beautiful picture!", I'm interrupted by Sarah who is staring at me with wide eyes.

"Shhhhhh," I try to shut her up immediately.

"What?"

"I don't want anyone to know what I'm doing!"

"Why? It was you who took it, wasn't it? I saw you with a camera yesterday at the concert!"

"Yes, it was me... But I like to edit the photos in peace and I don't really like sharing them with the world. Honestly, when I have the camera I try to make sure the photos capture what I'm feeling at that moment, so they are always very personal to me... Even if they are from other people or random objects!"

"Oh Mimi, I think that's really cute! I think Harry would love to see himself in these pictures, but I respect your wishes obviously!"

I feel myself blushing, I just mutter my agreement and try to hide my face so she doesn't see my embarrassment.

"Speaking of Harry..." she continued, "What the hell are you two up to?"

"What do you mean?"

"Oh, don't even try to fool me! I told you I saw you leave his room! And I see the little eyes you make each other!", she says with a confident look.

"Affffffff! I don't know Sar... I really don't know!"

"Tell me!"

"It's not a big deal... I mean... We kissed and had some fun but we didn't really do what you think! I don't know what to do! Harry is very sweet and he's one of the best people I know I know... I feel good with him and he makes me very happy but at the same time I'm afraid of letting myself go too far and getting hurt."

"But are you saying that you might like him?"

"NO! NOTHING OF THAT! That will never happen! It really can't! And now let's finish this conversation!"

She sighs and nodding says: "Are you okay?"

"Yes, I am... Sorry I got too worked up!

"Don't worry Mimi!", she smiles at me, gives me a kiss on the forehead and goes back to her place, leaving me alone with my thoughts.