Project Camp with Sikowitz

Why Does It Hurt

Tori's POV

It's Thursday and I have definitely done everything I can to ignore Jade I refuse to even talk to her. There was a time when I would just try to talk so we could be friends but I gave up on that. Come to find out the camping trip is for 2 weeks how did I miss that little detail? Oh yeah I ran out of class before Sikowitz could finish explaining anything. I told mom that I needed a tent just for myself so I didn't have to share with Jade. She had a feeling there was more to it but didn't push. I went with my dad to the camping supply store. He helped me pick out a tent and a sleeping bag. A few other things just in case they forgot something so we would be able to cook.

Once home I just laid in bed and cried I hurt so much how can one person hate me so much even though I didn't do anything. I wish she would just listen to me but that will never happen. I call up André to make sure he has everything packed and ready to go. Of course he didn't because he couldn't decide what he wanted to take. I swear he is just as bad as a girl when comes to being indecisive so I help he choose clothes, and everything else after 2 hours we were both ready. Well as ready as I will ever be. We talked for bit longer and he told me Jade broke up with Beck because he expected to get into her pants during the camping trip. I'm happy they broke up but it doesn't mean anything will change for me.

As I sit on my bed waiting for mom to call me there is a knock on my door so I tell come in not thinking. To my surprise it's the one person I have been avoiding. I don't want to talk to her so I tell her to leave but she refused to listen. She had such a sad look on her face when I said to leave but then replaced it with her ice cold expression. Her ice cold blue eyes keep drawing me in so I turn away from her so I don't get distracted again. My heart is beating in my throat she is so close and worse yet in my bed room. So I take a deep breath before speaking.

"Jade you made it perfectly clear that you hate me I'm sorry that you think I'm such a horrible person. I want you to leave I don't want to talk to you." I said with a shaky voice.

"Vega I came to say...." Before she could continue I stopped her.

"Leave please I hate you I don't want to talk." I said. The hurt in her eyes told me I had gone to far but it was to late.

"Don't worry Jade I won't be sharing a tent either I had my parents buy me my own. You won't have to even talk to me or be near me since you hate me more than anyone else. Oh and before you go...." I pause.

"Beck kissed me I didn't want him to and I couldn't push him off he was just to strong. Now you know but you don't have to believe me so leave me alone I'm done trying to be your damn friend." I said as I cried.

Jade's POV

She hates me I hurt her more than I thought there is absolutely no way to fix what I done. What gets me is she said Beck kissed her. He is a total ass but he promised he would never cheat. I don't know what to believe anymore. I turn an walk out of her room in complete shock with tears in my eyes and of course I had to run into Trina. The look in her eyes was a mixture of confusion and worry probably thinking I hurt her sister yet again. I just hold my hand up and motion for her to follow. Which oddly enough she did.

"Did you know that Beck kissed Tori on her first day of school, and I'm just now finding out that she wasn't the one who initiated it?" I asked.

"Yes." Trina said by the look in her eyes she was telling the truth.

"I'm in love with your sister just so you know but don't tell her she already hates me enough as it is."

"She doesn't hate you she is just hurt you really hurt her bad she lays in bed crying every night." Shocked at my confession of love towards her sister.

With that she said she wouldn't say anything for now but I needed to do my best at fixing it. She really hates seeing her sister hurt and as always it's me that is hurting her like I have nothing better to do. As soon as I get home I finish packing for the trip and think of ways to make it up to Tori I just hope she will forgive me. Everything packed I texted both André and Cat as a group text.

Texting: Help fix my mistake!
Jade: I need help please but first I have a question for both of you.
Cat: All ears.
André: Shoot I will answer if I can.
Jade: Did you know it was Beck who kissed Vega and not the other way around?
André: Yes I knew but you never wanted to hear it or see the truth even when Tori tried to explain.
Cat: Truthfully I had a feeling but didn't have any proof. But when it came to Tori you just ignored everything.
Jade: I need help fixing this please I'm in love with Tori. God since the first day I seen her my heart said she was the one.
Jade: But everything else about me said to hate her treat her like shit.
Cat & André: Will help where we can.
Jade: Thanks I will talk to you guys tomorrow I need to think and try to sleep.
André: Good nite talk tomorrow.
Cat: Kay Kay nite nite.

I put my phone on the charger and thought about what to do. I wander if somehow I can force her to partner up with me for some of the activities. Maybe I can get her to at least hear me say sorry. I can't believe I let my own self treat someone as amazing and perfect as her the way that I did. I wish I could turn back time and redo everything but I can't so I need to try and do better. Even if Tori doesn't love me because she is most likely straight I just don't want to see her cry anymore because of me being stupid. I'm such horrible human being no wander I'm such a fuck up in my dad's mind. I'm not worth loving hell I'm not even worth being friends with I don't know how Cat puts up with me.

Author note: slightly shorter chapter hope you enjoy let me know what you think.