Project Camp with Sikowitz

Feeling Complete

Jade's POV

I never thought I could feel so complete but after dinner with Tori and her parents. I just felt excepted and my brain had a hard time keeping up with all these new emotions. Tori took me up to her room and she set up a movie on her laptop for us. It was totally peaceful. As we lay there I can't help but let my mind wander. Apparently I was making a face because Tori kissed me to bring me out of my thoughts. She looked worried so I just shook my head. Not entirely ready to explain but I know she won't drop it. So with a deep shaky breath I decided it would be best just to explain.

"Tori baby don't worry I just kinda got lost in thought." I told her

"My brain is just trying to keep up with all these new emotions it's just so foreign to me." I tell her

"Please explain maybe I can help you in some way." She tells me

"Even though my mom has excepted me, Cat and of course you my brain is just telling me to stop. So it can process." I tell her

"So that's what I was doing just trying to process each individual new feeling but it became jumbled and hit all at once." I said, as I rub my hand on the back of my neck.

"Okay! So first new emotion is what?" She asked

"My love for you that one I am already good with. I worked that out before you asked me to be your girlfriend." I tell her

"Right now it's the feeling of being complete and also hopelessly lost without you next to me. Possibly also guilt and of course my own happiness." I tell her

"I'm not sure what I'm supposed to feel when one minute I'm happy, confused, sad, lost, and complete, but also a constant fear you will leave me." I said, with tears and a half smile.

"Well okay then one emotion at a time. Baby I can tell you right here right now I will never leave. You my love are completely stuck with me." She says

"Fear is normal nothing wrong with that it comes with being human. I can also tell you that have the same fear as you, but I don't let the fear overshadow my complete faith in your love for me." She says

"You feel sad and lost when your not near me because of your guilt of how you treated me in the past. I baby I completely forgive you that's a promise."

"Your heart feels complete because it has excepted the fact that you're not alone anymore. It's just taking your brain a little longer to catch up but I will be by your side the whole time." She said

"I feel lost when your not near me it's like a piece of me is missing. Then as soon as I see your beautiful smile I feel whole once again." She says

"Wow Tori when did you get so smart?" I asked jokingly, feeling so much better.

"Hey now I'm smart!" She says, playfully pushing my arm

"Yep smart, sassy, and full of bad ideas. Which is what I love about you." I say

"Thanks Tor I feel so much better. My head doesn't feel like a complete jumbled mess anymore." I tell her, with a peck to the cheek.

"Anytime love I'm always here no matter what." She tells me

I'm so unbelievably luck to have Tori in my life. We go back to watching the movie then it hits me. I look at Tori and reach over placing my thumb and index finger on her chin making her look me in the eyes. I lean in and capture her lips with mine. She pulls me closer as I slid my hand on her cheek. I take the opportunity to nibble on her bottom lip and slide my tongue in her mouth fighting for dominance. I explore her mouth as the kiss begins to get even more heated. Only to stop to catch our breath. I lean my forehead to hers.

"I love you so very much and I can't wait to see what our future holds." I tell her

"I love you more baby. More then words can ever convey." She says, with so much love in every word.

"Come to my house tomorrow have dinner with me and my mom. I want her to get to know you. Plus I think she wants to thank you for loving me for me and not expecting me to change." I tell her

"Of course I can't wait. I will come over early so we can make a full day of it." She says

"Sounds good to me." I say, kissing her one more time before cuddling into her neck once more.

Tori's POV

Wow that was an amazing kiss my head is still spinning. She just had to catch me by surprise. Definitely a very good surprise I can only hope she does it again. I like her little spontaneous kisses. Each and everytime my heart skips a beat and I get lost into her lips. They just feel so perfect against mine. I'm so unbelievably in love with her that I'm at a loss for words. She takes my breath away every time she smiles.

When I seen that look she had it worried me so of course I tried to get her attention with no luck. So of course the only thing that would possibly work was me kissing her. She finally came back to me. Lost in her own thoughts. Thankfully she didn't hide anything from me I hate when she does that. I want her to feel safe and comfortable around me. When she told me how she was feeling it made my brain spin and my heart drop, but I also felt happy that she told me instead of trying to deal with it on her own. I never want her to feel alone ever again.

When she told me about her fear of me leaving her I just wanted to cry. I just got her I don't ever want to leave but I can also see where she is coming from. I also have the same fear but my love for her and her love for me outweighs the feeling of fear. Every thing I told her was the truth. Hopefully going one emotion at a time and describing her why she possibly feels them helps calm her down. Having so many new emotions all at once can definitely be confusing. After blocking off all her emotions for so many years it all just had to hit at once.

After having a long conversation she felt better and so did I. She cuddled into my neck once again to finish the movie. When out of nowhere she gently grabbed my chin and made me look her in the eyes. No words to be spoken her lips conveyed every emotion she wanted me to feel. I put my hands on her waist and pull her closer to me. Our lips move in sync with each other she slips her tongue in my mouth. Fighting me for dominance I let her win because it felt way to amazing. My body wanted more but then she pulled away and put her forehead to mine. With my brain still spinning and butterflies erupting from a volcano.

The only words I heard was 'I Love You'. I told her how much I loved her and words could never convey my true love for her. I became lost in her eyes as she stared into my soul. My heart pounding in my ears I had a heard time focusing. Thankfully I pulled myself together because she asked me to have dinner with her and her mom. I was so excited (calm down Tori don't scare her with your over excitement.) I told her I would love to and we should make a day out of it. So I would go over early and hang out with her and her mom just so we can actually get to know each other. Unfortunately we have only met in passing because she would always be walking out the door for work. I just feel so unbelievably complete when I'm with Jade my heart is finally whole

Author note: I hope you are enjoying reading this as much as I am writing it. Just a few more chapters to go. Please enjoy and let me know what you think.