Saving Skyler

Another Day

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face and a hop in my step. I skipped over to my dresser and hummed along to the lyrics of Bad Intentions by Niykee Heaton. I put on my outfit ( above) and slipped on my black Jordan's and put on my boat hat that matched my coat. I sprayed heat protect on my hair and curled it. I then put BB cream , concealer , powder , bronzer , mascara, eyeliner, clear lip gloss , and then I filled in my eyebrows. I grabbed my phone and back pack then ran down stairs . I ate a granola bar then brushed my teeth. I looked at my phone and saw that I had several messages.

1. Matthew: Hey are you okay ? why weren't you at Algebra?

2. Mom: Hi honey , I just wanted to ask you if you could call me when you can . love you bunches.

3. Matthew: Sorry to bother you again but Skyler there are several ticked boys standing near your locker that looks like it was busted into. once again I'm sorry to bother you.

4. The school : Skyler , I would like to inform you that your locker was broken into . But we have moved your things to a new locker beside Matthew Johns. Have a nice day and we're very sorry for the inconvenience.

I looked at the clock if I hurried I would make it to third period in time. I grabbed my things and ran out to my car. I pulled my vapor pen out of my glove box and rolled down the window. I let the smoke clear my mind as my happy mood faded. I remembered what I have to do today but I don't know if it will work. I finally pulled up to the school and put away my vapor pen .I grabbed my bag hopped out of that car and locked it then ran into the school. I went to the class I knew Matthew was in so he could lead me to the lockers. finally the bell rang and Matthew came out once he saw me his eyes widened. " Skyler , woah , you look , just , well dang" he said seeming at a loss for words. I smiled at him and followed him to the lockers . he showed me which one was mine and all that jazz.

I grabbed my things and headed off to class acting as though Matthew wasn't there. My chest felt like it was vibrating from my heart beating so fast. Suddenly I saw Matthew walking beside me in sync with my step. As he began to talk I shut him out and pretended he wasn't there . Then I saw them my bullies. They stared at me in confusion and then Jayden said " Are you new here ? Wait Hold on...... is that?" he voice was purified in confusion and shock. I began hyperventilating , my throat seemed to tighten , my chest vibrated , i wanted to laugh and cry at the same time , i ran . I finally got to my class and ran to my desk in the back corner of the room. I looked at the board and it read " No class today Class is dismissed.

I ran out of the classroom to my locker. I put away my books and ran to my car. I got in my car and grabbed my phone and plugged in my beats and turned on niykee heaton. I grabbed my vapor pen and hopped out of my car . I looked at my Instagram , listened to music , and smoked hoping my bullies wouldn't notice me. Bad Intentions by Niykee Heaton came on and I hummed along. I looked up to see Matthew , the five guys from the theater , and four other guys , looking at me , actually scratch that staring at me . I rolled my eyes and took a deep smoke and blew little clouds at them. I opened my camera and took a picture of the boys . I posted the picture on Instagram with the caption " Can anyone tell me who these stalkers are they keep staring" . I instantly got likes , follows , and comments. I hopped into my car put away my beats and rolled down my window and took another deep smoke. I started play my rap playlist loudly and In this Thang blasted my speakers. I got a notification about Matthew so I opened my messages.

from Matthew: My friends literally think your the coolest girl on earth. And they want to meet you.

to Matthew: OK but should I put away my vapor pen and turn down my music . or are the cool?

from Matthew: I wouldn't say their cool , but they won't mind .

to Matthew: Potassium

from Matthew: No NO no , no more periodic table.

to Matthew: POTASSIUM

I hopped out of my car but left it on so the music was literally blasting. Dancin 4 Dollas began to play and I smirked. Matthew came and I hugged him and once we parted I took a deep smoke. " So Skyler , You smoke , listen to rap , wear Jordan's and beats , and ignore people . I don't get it " Matthew said a small grin on his face. I Ignored him and waved to everyone. Suddenly I heard his voice and their laughs ,they belonged to my bullies. " well if it isn't the bitch herself. I see you have friends. did you talk to them or are you still going with your four year long mute stretch." Jayden's voice was like salt in my wounds. I didn't know what got into me but I fought back." Why don't you go fuck yourself you damn bastard. Or you could go home to hell bitch" I spit at him then took a deep smoke and blew the white cloud of toxins in his face. The boys looked shocked and confused as well did my bullies. Suddenly Jayden grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and punched me in the face repeatedly . " Matthew " I whimpered as the world around me slowly became a place of darkness and coolness. The boys held me while Matthew began to beat Jayden. then one of the boys put a hand on my waist and applied pressure. " ahhh my freaking cuts" I screeched through gritted teeth. Matthew finally stopped beating Jayden but I didn't care. I hopped in my car and drove home absolutely dying inside.

I got home and called the school saying I got sick and went home and they were really calm .My phone began blowing up with notifications. I ran up to my room and grabbed my razor. I slid the cold metal razor across my hip repeatedly. I finally stopped once my leg had blood dripping down from my hip and I was dizzy. the world began to spin and I fell down to my knees I began to sob. I felt sick to my stomach. I wanted to laugh because there is no way Matthew or his friends will ever talk to me ever again. But I also wanted to cry because of the mess I've gotten myself into. I stripped off my clothes and put on my clothes. I picked up my dirty clothes and did some laundry. then I walked up stairs and cleaned up my room and bathroom. once that was done I turned on the shower and stepped into the calming hot water . I felt tears brimming my eyes , but today I didn't want to fight them off I let them fall. my body ached and stung. I stood under the hot water because I felt like it was cleansing me free of my mistakes.
After a while I got out of the shower and put on a sweatshirt , leggings, socks , and my Jordan's. I brushed my hair then threw it up into a messy bun. I walked downstairs and switched out the laundry loads. I walked into the kitchen and ate a pop tart then threw away the wrapper. I grabbed my phone and my vapor pen and walked outside. I put my phone in my pocket and smoked. I walked and took deep breaths full of smoke and toxin . I walked on the sidewalk and watched the scenery. I focused on the smoke enough to the point where nothing was in existence , it all seemed unreal. I decided to go home . the road seemed never ending but I just focused on it. I finally got home and walked upstairs. I put away my vapor pen and took of my Jordan's .

I went to my small balcony , pulled over my hidden ladder , then climbed on the roof. My roof had this one small spot that was completely flat which is where I sat. I grabbed my phone and read all of Matthew's messages. Each one hurt more than the last to not be able to answer. I finally texted back saying " Tell the boys I said bye . Please stay away from me. I need to be alone that's the way it's always been , just me , alone . I like it that way. Forget about me I don't know why or how you even noticed me. I don't need you or the boys to protect me. If you would've just walked away from me on Thursday none of this would've happened. I don't need anyone so just leave me and walk away like everyone . Please." it hurt to write but it's true. I took a picture of the stars and posted the picture on Instagram with the caption " God Damn , what have you done to me . I was better alone , when I didn't talk, when everything was nonexistent , when I was beaten , but Damn you had to walk in to that movie theater and sit next to me. But I was fine before I met you and I'll be fine once you leave...." . I watched the stars thinking about the fact that this very moment will live amongst and one day be a simple story , not a moment. I crawled off my roof , onto my balcony , and into my room. I plugged my phone into its charger. I laid in my bed with tears streaming down my face. And I was soon swept into the world of darkness and cold that I loved.