Saving Skyler

I lost him

I heard them talking. My friends , my mom , doctors , nurses , My old dance crew , my fans , Everyone. They didn't know I could hear them but I could. I could talk , but I didn't I only opened my eyes. It's been two months since what happened with Reese. I once heard Matthew say they put her in jail . I was fine not talking , I made friends but this is what happened. My friends have been posting things on my social media for me. My mom sued Reese's family and they were fine because they were angry with Reese and they paid for all of my medical bills without a question. My doctors say that in about two weeks I can go home. There's this one nurse , her name is Dinah. She knows I can talk and she knows about my cutting and depression. She even snuck me out to see my sister's grave and told the doctors who didn't tell my mom. She told me that Jackie got out of the hospital a month ago and that she is doing well. But Jackie has visited me at least once a week with Melanie. I saw Dinah walk in and she said " Alright Skyler . Today is the day your going to talk to your family , you promised. Now your friends are outside I'll be in the hallway but if you need me remember press the blue button and I'll come. Be strong Skyler you can do this" she said and hugged me.

Once she left I felt a wave of worry hit me. Slowly my friends , my dance crew , and Matthew all walked in . They looked like messes , but Matthew looked the worst. " I hope you guys know I hate you for letting this happen " Matthew said looking at my friends. " We didn't know Reese was going to beat her we thought Reese was just going to talk to her " Carter said. And then all hell broke loose they all began to fight. Every single one of them were fighting . It went on like this for another twenty minutes. And then i couldn't take it anymore " Stop it . Stop yelling all of you . I swear to god if one of you yell one more time I will explode." I yelled. The room fell silent and they all looked at me. Tears were running down my face , I held my head in my hands , and my breathing got heavier and heavier. " How long have you been able to hear us . How long have you been able to talk" Frankie said. " The whole damn time. I've heard everything you guys have said okay. I've been able to talk but I didn't . I'm so sorry" I said . they all came over to me and gave me hugs and said sweet things , except for Matthew.

He glared at me with anger , I was confused. " So your saying For two fucking months I was worried sick about you and you ignored me. You didn't give a damn about how it would effect me . Thinking that my girlfriend couldn't talk or hear me and seeing you look so broken. But all this time you were fine. You fucking liar" he yelled at me. I began to cry and say " I never meant to hurt "- but Matthew cut me off. " That's bullshit and you know it . I don't know why I was even worried about you. You're just a whore that's weak . I mean you were scared to tell your friends about Lena your dead sister. You're just a depressed freak with guilty friends and a mom who adopted you . But guess what no one really cares about you Skyler . No one needs you , You're worthless. So forget about us and whatever we were because I don't need you. I never needed you Skyler or wanted you . I never loved you , you were just a game to play with. I hope you die. So bye trash" He yelled and left. All my friends were saying things but I couldn't hear them. I only saw their mouths move as I began to replay what Matthew said. The boys ran out of the room while the girls stayed but I didn't care. " Please leave" I said in whisper. " No Skyler" they said as the boys filled the room again. I began to choke on his words as I felt myself panicking about Matthew. They all looked at me with worry in their eyes. " Get out" I said in my normal voice. I heard a wave of No's errupt from them. " Get out . Get out of my room now" I said a little below a yell and began to pound on the purple button. They looked at me shocked by my outburst and a few minutes later Dinah burst into the room. Dinah saw my face and quickly rushed them out of the room. " I want to go home Dinah . I need to go home. Just please get me out of here" I said to Dinah. " I'll see what I can do Skyler . Just calm down okay" she said and I nodded my head.

* Two days later

I just got home yesterday and honestly I'm exhausted . I have to go to school tomorrow and the thought of it is sickening . I made a video this morning saying that Matthew and I broke up . but I didn't say what really happened I just said it was a mutual thing and that I hope he finds someone who makes him as happy as he made me. And once I posted it the video went viral. I also got new tattoo's. One says " Appreciate Everything. Regret Nothing. " on my inner forearm. I got a small feather on my arm. I got an anchor and below it it says " Sometimes you need to sink before you can swim" . The last one says " Things Change And Friends Leave , And Life Doesn't Stop For Anyone" in a heart on my arm. I hopped in the shower and relaxed. Once I was done I slipped on a pair of black leggings , black socks , and a graphic sweatshirt a fan made for me. I plugged my phone into its charger and thought about tomorrow. I have to start on Monday so I don't even get a half of a week of school. But the school did say if I needed to go or stay at home at any point in the next two weeks that it was fine. I closed my eyes praying that Matt wasn't at school since I have all the same classes with him. But I felt a little relieved when I remembered my dance crew transferred to my school for our senior year a week ago. Suddenly I got a text from Frankie. And yes I'm talking to my friends they have been so supportive through everything. I grabbed my phone and read the message . It said " Change of plans we're practicing our duet at school in the dance room during lunch tomorrow with the crew . See you tomorrow nerd" he typed. I laughed then replied with " see you at school . Bring me a cape so I can hide from Matthew " he read my text. He replied with " Okay bat girl " with a picture of a bat cape he had from one of our Halloween dances. " Thank you Frankie , good night" I wrote . He typed back " no problem but if Matthew pulls anything tell me and I'll beat his ass. Night Skyler" . I smiled then plugged my phone in and fell asleep.