Saving Skyler

Boys , Tattoo's , and Toxin's.

I woke up feeling like I was dying inside. I felt myself gag and as the memories of yesterday resumed in my mind like stabs. I ran to the bathroom and put my hair in a ponytail then leaned over the toilet. I'd rather not go over the event though. I cleaned up the bathroom and brushed my teeth . I looked into the mirror to see that I only had a few bruises and a small cut in my lip from yesterday. I hopped in the shower and cleaned up and all that boring stuff. once I was done I got out of the shower and blow dried my hair then brushed it. I walked into my room in my robe trying to decide on what I wanted to do. I went on my phone and decided I was going to hang out at the mall , go penny boarding , and then I was going to see a movie. I went through my clothes trying to decide on what to wear but I was having a hard time. It was supposed to be hot today so that helped a bit. I finally picked out an outfit and let me tell you , I was proud. I put on BB cream , powder , bronzer , mascara , shimmery lip gloss , and I did a cat eye. I grabbed my phone and took a selfie and posted it on Instagram with the caption " Doing better today , things are just the way I like them. Let's hope it lasts." I looked at my page and realized I had 6 thousand followers on Instagram and 8.5 thousand on twitter. I decided in that moment that I would start talking but only to the people I also made a vine account and tweeted it out . I then walked downstairs and grabbed my car keys , wallet , and penny board .

I walked outside and locked my house and got in my car. Before I started driving I tweeted out asking people to ask me questions I would answer in vine videos. I played Niykee Heaton and began to drive. I rolled down my window's and opened my roof and enjoyed the sun. I finally arrived at the mall which was different. it was more like a shopping center so I could skate from store to store . I grabbed my phone , wallet , and vapor pen then put the stuff in my purse. I took off my coat then tied it around my waist and put my purse on my shoulder . I pulled my keys out of the ignition and grabbed my penny board. I locked my car and began to skate around .
I began to vine.
1. " what is your favorite color? my favorite color would have to be ocean blue. What's your favorite color.

I answered another twenty to thirty questions like that. I read a tweet , it was a dare for me to take a selfie and make a vine with a stranger. I accepted and looked around , I finally found a boy that looked about my age, but he was with a group of boys . I walked up to him and tapped on his shoulder , He turned around and looked at me. " Well hello there " he said sweetly. I explained to him the twitter thing and he agreed. for the selfie I was making a Mikey Cyrus face and he was kissing my cheek. And then for the vine we did it with his friends. We said " Do it for the vine " and his friends said " I ain't goin do it " and it just kinda worked out like that. I actually ended up walking around with the boys. their names were Brady , Austin , Damian , Shawn , Luke , and my favorite Chris.

After about an hour I remembered that I was planning on going to the tattoo shop. I asked the boys if they knew were it was and they all looked at me shocked. Finally Luke said " Your getting a tattoo!?!?" I laughed. " I already have several tattoo's so why not" I smiled. Brady looked at me and said " Show us your tattoo's I don't believe you". I smiled and showed them my tattoo's . After about ten minutes of walking and talking we finally found the tattoo shop. The boys all decided they were going to get a tattoo. We separated in the shop to choose our tattoo's. I got " Wake Up Everyday Stronger Than Yesterday , Face Your Fears And Wipe Your Tears" written on my lower back. I also got a cross on the back of my neck and " Forget the risk and take the fall, If it's what you want then it's worth it all" written on my right ribcage. Since I had gotten tattoos before it didn't really hurt. But they did give an ice pack for my ribcage since the skin there is sensitive. Once I walked out into the waiting room all the boys jumped up . "Wassup Meh Besties " I said smiling. " How many tattoo's did you guys get" I said. " Wait how many. you got more than one!" Luke said. " Yeah I got three look " I said showing them my tattoo's. Austin got " We Learn As We Grow " on his bicep .Damian got "Real Eyes. Realize . Real Lies " on his shoulder .Brady got " Kill them with success , And bury them with a smile" on his bicep. Shawn got " Float like a butterfly. Sting like a bee. The hands can't hit what the eyes can't see " on his upper chest. Luke got " Impossible Is Nothing " on his shoulder blade. Chris got " The only limitations one has are the ones they place on themselves" on his bicep . And " Live Fast. Die Young. Bad Decisions . Moments Of Infinity. Let's have some fun." on his upper chest.

" Awww Guys I'm so proud of you. None of you chickened out " I said hugging them. " Wait hold on Let's take a picture" I said and they all smiled and leaned towards me. After taking almost a hundred photos we stopped. I looked through the photo's and posted my favorite one on Instagram. We were all smiling and laughing at this old dude that had a wig on his head that was falling off and mismatching shoes. I put the caption as " Got Some New Tattoo's With Meh Besties " and them I linked their users. I tweeted and made a vine with the boys.

we walked around and found a taco bell. The boys decided they were going to order for me while I sat outside. Once the boys were gone I pulled out my vapor pen and took a deep breath. I walked over to a bench with a guy sitting on it in a hoodie. " Is it okay If I sit here?" I asked but the guy just shrugged. I sat down and opened my phone since I had a text , it was from Austin. It read " I see you smoking . Make sure you don't have to much fun without us. We'll be out in about in like fifteen min." I laughed." It sure is a beautiful day isn't it " the guy next to me said. " it really is isn't it , Sir" I replied smiling. He looked up and I came face to face with, Matthew. His eyes widened and his jaw dropped. " Skyler. You Talked . Words just came out of your mouth. " his voice was low and surprised. My heart ached just looking at him. I turned off my vapor pen then stood up and put my vapor pen in my purse. I started hyperventilating , my body shook , my eyes brimmed with tears, my chest ached, my throat began to constrict. tears rolled down my cheeks as I looked at him " Stay Away from me . please" I said pained to even speak. I felt like I was dying , I wanted to cut, I felt sick to my stomach. the tears began to come even more rapidly. Suddenly the boys came out and saw me . " Skyler -" Matthew began to say but I cut him off. " Stay away from me " I said feeling weaker by the minute. And that was it , I ran.

I ran and ran , I could hear all of the boys yelling my name but I kept running. I eventually found a hidden corner and collapsed. I wanted to die. I focused on my breathing and was swept up into my world. There was darkness and no sense of heat it was absolutely freezing. I was alone in the darkness, but this time it hurt. I had liked being alone before . Now it hurt my chest and my eyes burned as my tears as tears fell. I breathed in the suffocating toxin's. My lungs got weaker at every breath. I began running my hands through my hair. My hips burned where I cut , but it only made me want to cut more. The loneliness was consuming and confining.