As I walked inside I felt odd. I went upstairs and put down my things. I walked into my bathroom and smiled. I closed the door then stripped down and hopped in the shower. Once I was done I hopped out of the shower and put my hair up in a messy bun. I looked at the clock and saw it was 4:00 o'clock. I put on my maroon muscle T-shirt that a fan gave me , black ripped up jeans , a black bandeau , my maroon vans , maroon beanie , and I tied Matthew's navy blue hoodie around my waist. I put on concealer , powder , Mascara , I tightlined my eyes , put on maroon lipstick , then did a cat eye with my eyeliner.
I grabbed my phone and camera then went down to the basement. I posted videos of me singing Yours , life support, Aftertaste , Sober , and Viva La Vida.
Once I was done I was on Instagram and saw I had a DM. I Opened it , it read " Hi my name is Melanie and my best friend is currently in the hospital. She tried committing suicide and when the doctor asked her why she said " I don't see any point in staying" and that killed me. She is literally your biggest fan , her name is Jackie Warren . She sent you a maroon T-shirt and literally spent hours contemplating on whether it was good enough. I need to show Jackie that their is a reason to stay , She is all I have left. So if you could please come to the Mc Adams hospital that would show her a reason to stay. You probably won't read this message but I had to try for Jackie. " I began to cry. I got up and ran to my room . I grabbed my shirt that said " I love you " and ran downstairs. I went into my moms office and sat down at her desk. I grabbed a pen and a piece of fancy paper.
On the paper I wrote
" Dear Jackie ,
I found out that you tried to commit suicide and that killed me .Jackie I understand what you feel. I know that everything seems useless and dark. When a person wants to die they have a place. Mine was dark and cold. I couldn't see , I was alone , and helpless . I loved that place at one point. But Jackie one day something will happen and you'll begin to hate that place. Jackie I was saved by a boy named Matthew. I don't know who or what will save you , or how , but it will one day. I want you to stay. Jackie you are family and I love you. I need you to stay Jackie because people like you who support me , are who keep me going. So you can trust me , and I will try to be the person who keeps you going. If you can't find a reason to live read this letter and stay for me . Because We're only human and we can only learn and grow. Babygirl your so amazing and I want you to see that. We all fall down and get hurt but we all smile and reach the mountain top.
Love you Babygirl ,
Skyler Donnell "
I put the letter in a envelope then got a box and put the T-shirt and envelope in a box . I went upstairs and grabbed my red and black flannel and threw it in my purse along with my phone and wallet. I grabbed my keyboard , purse and the box then got in my car and drove . It was a thirty minute drive to the hospital but I didn't mind .
Once I got to the hospital I DMed Melanie and she met me by the entrance. I hugged her while she cried in my arms and kept saying thank you. Once she calmed down she held my keyboard while I bought a big teddy bear. We sat down on a bench while I put my flannel on the teddy bear. We got up again and I took my things while Melanie led me to the room. Melanie went into the room then came back out and said her family was in the room with her but her family didn't know I was coming. Then she walked in and I followed her.
Once I walked in everyone stared at me but Jackie. Jackie was staring out the window crying. I put my keyboard down on the counter along with my purse and the teddy bear. I walked over to her while her family stared at me confused. I sat down in the chair next to Jackie's bed then held her hand and said " Jackie Please look at me " I said but she shook her head. She probably thought I was one of her family members . " Please Jackie , Its Skyler " I said the saw cuts on her wrists and felt tears fall down my cheeks , its a good thing my makeup was waterproof. She slowly turned to me and once she realized who I was she began to cry . I got up and sat on the edge of the bed and held her. " Shhh , Babygirl don't cry , Your too beautiful to cry . And I don't like to see Beautiful cry people I love cry." I said and she began to cry harder. " Thank you so much" she said looking at me. I suddenly heard an eruption of sobs and gasps from behind me. I turned around and looked at her family. " She hasn't said a word since she had talked to the doctor ." A man said holding a woman. I assumed they were her parents. " I don't want to be rude but do you guys mind if I just talk to Melanie and Jackie" I said . but they all smiled and nodded at me and left the room.
Melanie pulled up a chair and sat by me. " Jackie if you don't mind is it okay if I record " I said remembering I had a blog camera in my purse. She nodded her head no as I stood up . I set up the camera then sat down in my original spot. We all I talked and I told them my story .Once Jackie told her story I held her.
" Will you sing something " Jackie said. I got my key board and sat back down in my spot. I began to play Beneath Your Beautiful , which I love.
I stayed for another hour and gave them both my number then handed Jackie her presents. I gave them tons of hugs then grabbed my keyboard and purse and headed to the waiting room. I walked in and told them that Jackie and Melanie were in the room and that they could go in.
Just before I left they all gave me a hug , and suddenly I felt a tug on my leg . It was a little girl , I picked her up and she wrapped her arms around my neck . " Thank you for helping my sister . I've really been missing her" Jackie's sister said crying. I held her close as she cried harder and said " Its okay don't worry everything will get better soon ". I kissed her on the head then said goodbye to everyone again and walked out the door. I got to my car and put my things in the passenger seat .
Once I got home I put away my things and ate some canned chicken noodle soup. I went upstairs and washed off my makeup then brushed my hair and put it back up in a bun. I changed into an old T-shirt , black leggings , and some fuzzy socks . Then I set up my camera and lights. I made an outro for my video of me talking with Jackie. I told my fans that if they needed someone to talk to or be with they could just DM me and I would be there. I posted the video on my channel and smiled. I put away everything and plugged my phone into the charger . I got on twitter and wrote " Girls tomorrow wear heals , dresses , jewelry , makeup , all the works. Then on a piece of paper write ' does following society's standard make me beautiful?' and tape it somewhere on you. Let's do this in honor of my song , Pretty Hurts , that I'm releasing soon. Goodnight my lovelies" then posted it on the rest of my social media apps. I got a message from Jess saying " Let's Hope to god I don't die wearing heals tomorrow , but I'm doing it for you. Goodnight Sky " I laughed. I texted back saying " Don't worry you'll be fine , thank you for the support . Goodnight jess" . I closed all of my apps then turned off my phone and went to sleep. Just wait till school tomorrow......
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Saving Skyler
Teen FictionI held my head in my hands gripping my hair. I squeezed my eyes shut as tight as possible. I felt sick and angry, I was lost without him.
