So I am immensely dumb. My mind has always been fuzzy with emotions, my mind doesn't know how to perceive them... I've lost so many people, and had so many people just walk out on me. My brain has never completely understood the emotions that I feel until it's to late. It tries to make me feel that nobody is capable of loving me and not getting tired of me or tired of loving me... Sometime I give in and think that, but then most of the time I regret it after. It's a habit that I hope to break one day at least.. I didn't tell somebody how I felt recently and now they're not even talking to me.. I don't know if they can't talk or don't want to... I just don't know I haven't heard from them for more than a week... I've been messaging them but I guess I finally gave up... I dont know what to think or do about it so I'm writing in here.. hopefully I will hear from him because he's so important to me and whether he knows it or not I need him in my life. I want him in my life. I don't wanna lose him. I don't wanna lose anybody else.. I'm so sick and tired of losing people that I care about, of people that I love ...
~ Selena
