The Opposite Of Love; ferard

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question one- sexual orientation?

answer- homosexual, demisexual

18 is an important age.

it's the age you must be to take the match test and meet your soul mate.

it's also the age you have to be so your parents can no longer control your caffeine intake.

i was 18 and taking the test was all i ever wanted to do, until it was actually time.

question two- greatest fear?

answer- being unwanted

it was unimaginably long, it determined the rest of your life, and there wasn't any escape from it.

take my parents for example. they were matched when they were 18 and have hated each other ever since. my dad got my mom pregnant and ran. he sends money like the good distant father that he is, and calls on my birthday and christmas, but I never hear anything from him besides that.

the system destroyed my parents lives. they can never be happy without each other, but they can't be happy with each other either.

question three- sex

answer- male

mom didn't hate dad; mom hated what he represents. she hates the system. she was stuck in a pointless relationship because of it.

question four- gender

answer- male

she told me that I would probably be happy with my match, that most people are. but there was still a chance, however limited.

question five- what do you look for in a relationship?

answer- trust

even if my soul mate didn't ignore me, all they would want is sex. but i don't want sex. i don't like it, i don't want it, i don't need it.