Broken Valeria Garza x oc

Part 19: It Was All A Dream

Not proof read so sorry for any mistakes lol

Carmen: Val stop *Laughing* Val! Wait your a dog not Val. What is a pomeranian doing on an army base? Nevermind. This is a house, not an army base. Where the fuck am I?

I sat up and looked around while the random dog made itself comfy on my lap. The bed I sat on had a green comforter and the walls were a soft eggshell white. There were various decorations on the wall and fresh lilies fit into vases—my favorite flower. I stood up and carefully sat the dog down. I walked over to the large dresser that had vases along the edges and a few framed pictures. 

I looked at the mirror that sat on top of the dresser. Am I real? My face adorned a few visible wrinkles of old age. I looked down at my hands and gasped seeing the beautiful dainty emerald ring on my ring finger.

Carmen: A gift from Val? Did I get Hurt? 

I looked back at my body in the mirror. I was wearing a silky white nightgown that had lace around the ends and the cups of my breasts. Why is it relatively peaceful right now? There's no yelling, humvees, or radios. I hear birds chirping and the sunlight is shining in the room I'm in. Suddenly I heard the soft cries of a baby and heavy footsteps coming up the stairs. 

Valeria: Good Morning Hermosa! sorry to wake you up, but it's Riley's feeding time. He was NOT taking it by bottle this morning. 

Carmen: Val? Who's baby is that? 

Valeria: It's ours, Amor. Are you ok? Did you and Papi drink too much last night?

Carmen: Um I'm not sure. 

Valeria: Well here. You take Riley I'll go make us breakfast. 

Val kissed my head while putting the baby in my arms and then I heard her feet shuffle down the stairs. The once-crying baby was now calm and smiley in my arms. I sat in the chair and lowered the gown to feed Riley. I rocked the baby while feeling a weird maternal feeling toward him. I traced my finger over the bridge of his nose making his eyes flutter. His eyes were a pretty brownish hazel like Val's and his nose shape was similar to mine. 

His breathing was calmer and I soon deemed he was sleeping. I lifted the strap of my gown and slightly rocked him while standing up. I walked around the beautifully furnished home in search of the nursery. 

When I finally found it I was surprised to see the beautiful dinosaur theme. I walked over to the magnificent brown crip that was well decorated and beautiful. I sat Riley down to have a nap and immediately felt a sense of loss and coldness. The farther my arms moved away the more I wanted to hold him closer and make the maternal moment last longer. 

Valeria: Oh good you got him down for a nap. Come eat Carina. 

Carmen: Alright. 

Valeria: Are you sure you're alright? You seem lost.

Carmen: I think I'm just super tired, Love. 

Valeria: Well come on. We'll eat breakfast later. For now, let's get you some rest. 

*Cries*

Valeria: Damn. He hasn't slept longer than an hour for 3 days. I'll get Riley. Head up to the room we'll come and nap with you. 

Carmen: Alright, Darling. 

I walked up the stairs into the bedroom with a small smile. I wanted things to stay peaceful and happy like this forever. Val walked in with Riley tucked in her arms. She laid on her side of the bed opposite of me and put Riley in the middle. I saw the small puppy curl up at my feet. she stared into my eyes lovingly and pushed a small piece of hair behind my ear. she stroked my arm with her eyes closed. I huddled in closer with Riley in my arm. I draped my arms over him and leaned my body into Val's making sure to subconsciously protect my beautiful baby from the world. I let my eyes close and drifted to sleep.

The next time I woke up I had a bright smile on my face. I looked around but saw the boring white walls and basic furniture of the army base barracks. My smile dropped and my eyes glossed over as I realized it was all a dream. I let back fall against the back of the twin-size mattress. I let out small sobs and curled my body as tight as I could. I sat for an hour mourning my baby that never existed and a life that most likely could never be mine. I stared at the empty wall ahead of me now feeling a sense of numbness. I let out occasional sniffles and sat in the dark. soft knocks were heard at the door. I didn't have enough energy to reply. 

Rudy: Carmen? you missed the debrief with Captain Price- Oh Hermana. Are you Alright?

Rudy ran to my side. I sat staring blankly with teary eyes. He rubbed his hand on my back while looking at me worriedly. I sniffled and tried to hold back the tears, but they kept spilling over and some strayed down my cheeks. As soon as I felt Rudy grab my shaking figure into a hug I let out all of my tears and longing whimpers. I hugged him tightly yearning for the comfort the dream brought to me. 

Rudy: Shh. Shh. It's alright Hermana. I got you. Do you want to talk about it? 

I never let go of him until my tears finally slowed to a stop. My head hurt and my nose was stuffy. I could feel the sting in the corners of my eyes from the pressure. Rudy never stopped rubbing his hand on my upper back. His other hand held onto my head and softly scratched my scalp. Rudy has been there with me every time I wake up from nightmares, so he knows exactly what he needed to do to calm me down. 

Carmen: I had a baby, Rudy. Val was there. we had a nice house, we were married, had a dog, and a baby boy named Riley. I-I fed him, Rudy. I felt the connection only to find out it was just a dream! I don't know what to do Hermano. I'm grieving a baby that never existed. Am I crazy?

Rudy: You are not crazy Carmen. You have every right to be upset Hermana. 

Carmen: I'm sorry Rudy. I shouldn't put this on you. 

Rudy: hey hey none of that. Never be sorry for telling people about your feelings. 

Carmen: Thank you, Rudy. 

Rudy: Let's go get some food hmm? I'll make your favorite.