What am I supposed to do, If there's no YOU (Declare #1)

Part 23

"Release the restraining orders." sabi ng dad ko sa kausap niya sa cellphone niya.

Binaba niya ang cellphone niya at nag pameywang.

"What does he need? After what he did!" galit na sabi ng dad ko.

Nasa loob kami ng study room ng bahay namin, kasama ko amg magulang at kapatid ko, at si Rowan.m, he stayed with me indeed, and my brother even drag him here, with my family... Maybe because, he is part of this family, he is my brother's bestfriend, but his presence soothe me... His eyes are all I want to see...

Rowan didn't say anything about the issue and what happened, nakikinig lang siya sa amin, maging ang nanay ko na nakahawak lang sa kamay ko.

"anong sinabi niya sayo, CJ. Tell us." matigas na sabi ng kuya ko kaya tiningnan ko amg mommy ko na malungkot na ngumiti ng kaunti at daddy ko na nakatingin lang sa akin.

Nag buntong hininga ako at sinabi sa kanila ang naging usapan namin at nakita kong nag baga ang mata ng kapatid ko, halatang susugod siya kay Rafael ulit, at kinabaham naman ako dahil baka siya naman ang makasuhan.

"Kuya, Please... I told him na wala na siyang babalikan, let's stop there." sabi ko sa kanya.

"Rowan." tawag ng Daddy ko.

"Yes, Sir?" tanong niya habamg umiinom lang ulit ng whisky sa baso njya at nakatingin sa tatay ko. Tsaka lng siya nag salita ng tinawag siya ng dad ko, he is so respectful...

"You own an agency to hire professional bodyguards, right?" tanong ng dad ko at tumango siya.

"yes, Sir." magalang niyang sabi sa daddy ko.

"Good." sabi ni Dad.

"Dad, is that necessary?" tanong ko sa kanila.

"Yes! The Chen clan is powerful too, I'll make sure that he can't go near you, again." sabi ni Dad.

"I'll arrange it right away. " sabi ni Rowan ulit.

"Anton, You think... He regained his memories?" tanong ng mom ko, tiningnan ko siya.

"What would happen if he did?" biglang tanong ni Mommy sa akin.

"No, Mom. I will never get back to him." sabi ko sa kanya kaagad...

Disidido na ako... it's Rowan...

I know, who I'm inlove with... I don't know if we have future together... But fuck! I don't care...

"anak, don't you think titigilan ka niya once he regained his memories? Lalo na at nag hiwalay kayo dahil hindi ka niya nakikilala mgayon, what if he remembers you?" tanong niya....

Napaisip naman ako... Mom have a point...

Nag hiwalay lang kami dahil hindi niya ako naaalala...

If he did that last year...maybe...

Maybe I'll come back willingly and fight everyone to get back to him.

But he is one year late....

Umiling ako...

sinulyapan ko si Rowan, he is lazily holding his glass of whisky, at kumabog ang dibdib ko because he is coldly looking at me so I'm taken a back at umiwas ko. Fuck this heart beating so fast...whenever he is looking at me, my heart will jump...

"it's too late, Mom. He is too late..." sabi ko sa kanila.

Pag labas namin ay tumungo kami sa garden, tuloy parin amg party kahit may nangyaring gulo kanina, hindi ako papayag na masira ang magandang gabi ko ito dahil lang kay Rafael.