What am I supposed to do, If there's no YOU (Declare #1)

Chapter 40

Akala ko noong una ay tapos na...

But everyday for the past two months... I always receive text messages from Rafael, asking me to talk.

tiningnan ko ang asawa ko na nakatalikod at nakaupo sa sala pag baba ko sa bahay.

Lumapit ako sa kanya, He is working, typing to his laptop.

tiningnan niya ako at ngumiti, I felt like I am being unfair to him if I didn't talk to him about this, Rafael gained his memory back... After they sedate me two months ago, yun ang huling pag uusap namin, and now I don't want him bombarded me with texts, ayaw kong ito ang dahilan ng pag aaway namin ng asawa ko..

Nilapag ko ang cellphone ko sa tabi ng laptop niya, and I made sure na nakaopen ang messages ni Rafael, kumunot ang noo ng asawa ko at tumingin sa cellphone ko.

Umupo ako sa tabi niya... I am sad, because I know this will hurt him.

"Read it, and tell me if I will talk to him or I will let it go, My Love. I want to know what you will feel, I can change my number, anything you want me to do, I will do it." sabi ko sa kanya. Mahal na mahal ko siya and I want to include him in every step of the way because he deserves it.

He is scrolling through my phone and it pains me to see him sad and mad, he can't stop clenching his jaws looking through every texts.

"whatever you want me to do, My love, I will always choose you." sabi ko sa kanya.

tiningnan niya ako, Hinawakan ko ang mukha niya dahil sobrang lungkot niya.

"I'm sorry... I'm hurting you." sabi ko sa kanya.

"No... No wife, I just can't... believe it." kumunot ang noo ko.

"from what?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"That you are this... Loyal." napanganga ako.

"What do you mean? This is normal, you are my husband, Of course you are included in every decision I will make, just like you are, to me. We are one." sabi ko sa kanya, he is just as loyal as me.

Hinawakan niya ang beywang ko at binuhat niya ako ng parang wala lang papunta sa lap niya, I played his hair and smelled it.

"I love you. You can, go talk to him. He is part of your past My love, I want this all to be done." sabi niya, tumango ako.

"I want this to be done too, I want to travel and make babies with you, My Love." sabi ko, niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit.

"let's do that, Iet's settled everything first." sabi niya sa akin.

"thank you for everything My Love." sabi ko at hinalikan ko ang ulo niya.

"Where do you want to get married, My Love? Overseas, Garden wedding, beach wedding?" napangiti ako at tumingin ako sa kanya.

"everywhere, as long as you are my groom. I love you enough to be picky." sabi ko, hinalikan ko ang labi niya, binuhat niya ako at dinala sa kwarto namin at mag hapon kaming nag talik.

Hapon na at tinawagan ko si Rafael habang hawak ang kamay ni Rowan sa.

( CJ...) napabuntong hininga ako.

He sounds sad... I knew that this would happen once he regained his memories.

"Rael, I'm going to do this because my husband is generous to let me..." tiningnan ko si Rowan, I know this is hard for him.