Loving Hero

tell me the truth

When I arrive at my apartment I get into the shower and try to get rid of my exhaustion and the worries but memories from last night flood my mind like an overflowing river.

I cheated on Nick with Kane and the guy from the bar!

Oh my God! What has become of me?

I lie and cheat.

I hate those two things and now I’m doing it. How am I going to face Nick?

Is Kane right?

I turn the shower faucet off and step out. The doorbell rings as I wrap a towel around my body and walk out.

Nick stands at the other side with Ginger.

“Hi.” I open the door wider and Ginger runs in, not aware of the tension.

“Hi.” He walks in. I sigh, try to calm my heart and close the door.

“Can I get you anything?” I ask and he shakes his head no and I sit next to him. I pat Ginger on the head.

He looks at me for a good second without saying anything.

“You can ask me anything.” He pushes his hair back.

“I don’t know if I want to know the answer.” He confesses. I wouldn’t want to know if I was in his shoes also. “But I want you to tell me the truth.”

I kneel between his thighs and make him look at me.

“Nothing happened.” I lie.

He is heartbroken already and if I tell him the truth he will not recover. Nick is one of those guys with good hearts, treat women well but we are just too damaged to see them as our future instead we chase after the heartbreakers.

“You expect me to believe that?” his eyes are red like he has been crying all night. He has bags under his eyes.

“I expect you to trust me. I know I was wrong not to tell you I came but I needed to deal with some things and things took a turn for the worst and Kane kind of helped.” I half lie.

I am a horrible person.

The worst person on the planet.

“Nick.” I cup his cheeks. “I love you.” I don’t know if I am trying to convince myself or him but what I know is he is good for me. Anna is right. If I don’t want to be compared to Caroline then I have to do things differently. She chose a man like Kane and it didn’t end well.

“My mother told me I am not her real daughter and I don’t know what happened but I found myself in a bar and that’s how he found me.” Technically I’m not lying to him. I just didn’t tell him about reuniting with Kane in New York or the fact that I cheated on him with another at the bar.

“What? How are you feeling?” he looks so cute shocked that a pang of guilt tug at my heart.

“I am trying.” I peck his lips dismissing the topic and he cups my neck, intensely moulding our lips together. I get on his lap and tug the roots of his hair and he moans in my mouth. I break the kiss and pull his shirt over his head and he unwraps the towel and it pools on my waist. He takes my nipple in his mouth and a shiver runs down my spine. Goosebumps form in the pit of my stomach. He hoists me up and walks to the bedroom and lay me on the bed. I make myself comfortable as he takes off his jeans. He gets between my legs and connects our lips and soon I feel his cock sliding inside me.

He has a condom on, he always does. We have never had sex without it.

I guess it’s Kane and I thing.

He groans and thrust in and out of me. My nails dig into his back to go faster and deep but it’s not enough.

“Faster,” I beg and he does, creating the sensation I was looking for but it only lasts for seconds. I can feel him reaching his climax and I’m not even close to reaching mine.

He thrust one last time and empty himself inside the condom groaning in pain and pleasure. He pulls out and discards the condom and lay back on the bed with me. I always wondered if sex is important in a relationship.

I mean if you love each other should our sex life matter? Is sex worth leaving someone you know is good for you?

Should you leave someone for satisfying you in bed?

“My parents are having a welcome dinner for Kane tonight and I would love it if you could come with me.” He is testing me.

I know I should say no regardless of what he says but I say, “Sure.”

This is a bad idea. The last time I was there, I was humiliated and now I’m going back as Nick’s girlfriend. What are they going to think about me?

Probably the worst.

Dating brothers! That has to be the worst decision I have ever made in my entire life.

“Don’t you think your parents are going to judge me?” I turn to face him.

“I mean I dated Kane and now you.” He chuckles and tug a strand of my hair behind my ear.

“They are going to love you regardless of who you dated in the past. The important thing is you make me happy and that’s all they care about.” He reassures me and I let it all but it’s brewing in my thoughts.