Just Friends

Chapter 20 {Confusion Sucks}

      I return home extremely tired and sweaty. I'm hungry and my legs hurt, but the thought of what happened in the park makes me smile a little to myself.
I flop myself on the couch and decide to call Roxy. But while scrolling through my contacts I realized I don't have Dominic's number. I also realize that about a half hour ago at the park would have been the perfect time to ask.
I let out a big breath and roll my eyes at the huge opportunity I just missed.
I scroll down farther and see Nathans name. I've had his number since the sixth grade and we used to text all the time but...now he just ignores my texts unless it's for sending him answers to homework.
We've grown apart so much since that day...
And it's all Skylar's fault.
Just thinking about Skylar makes me think about how quiet she's been lately. I mean not really that quiet but quieter than she was before she basically ruined my entire relationship with Nathan and embarrassed me in front of almost the whole grade to the point I had to try to become this whole new person that's rude and disrespectful to everyone except her friends.
And that's just not who I am...
it's who I was forced to be...
I shake my head frustratingly, and pursue with calling Roxy.
I put the phone on speaker and set it on the counter as I search through the refrigerator for a snack.
After a few rings I hear an answer.
"Hey Gabby you picked the absolute worst time to call me I'm busy can't talk now bye!" she says quickly.
"What?" I shout taking my head out of the refrigerator, but she already hung up.
All I heard was I picked the absolute worst time to call and bye.
Whatever I guess...
I go back in the refrigerator and stumble upon the cookie dough.
I refuse and push it back far in the back so it is hidden from my sight.
Finally, I decide on a bowl of strawberries.
I carry the bowl upstairs and plop myself down on my bed and check my instagram.
The first picture is of Bethany. She looks like she's walking in the middle of the street and there are words under her feet that say: I don't trust words I trust actions.
I should do that more often...
Ugh, just everything about Bethany is so perfect! She's always happy and always gets perfect grades on everything. Her long brown hair with ombre blue tips which is something I could never pull off, flawless body, superior grades and loveable personality? It's amazing how people think Skylar is better than her.
I dismiss the thoughts of Skylar because I know it will just bring me down.
After I finish my bowl of strawberries I glance over and see the time.
5:03
There's still a lot of time left in the day. And I have absolutely nothing to do.
I sit and think of other things I could do.
Like all times, I decide on calling Roxanne to help out with the major boredom issues.
I go to my recent calls and tap her name. After the first ring I remember what she said earlier.
Two rings later, I get answer.
"Hey, I'm so bored right now, so like you wanna go to the mall or some-" she cut me off.
"Look Gabs Im busy right now and-" shes whispers. I can barely hear another person in the background, but have no idea what they're saying.
"No, it's just my friend has no social life and is always depending on me to help her when she's bored," Roxanne says to the other person, but clearly saying it loud enough for me to hear.
I'm set aback a little when she said I have no social life.
Excuse me, but if it weren't for me no one would even know who she is.
"Roxanne?!  What the heck happened to make you all of a sudden think I have no social life? Hello I'm the reason you exist in our school honey!" I shout into the phone, but then I realize that was a bit harsh.
"Listen Gabriella, " she whispers again. "I'm busy right now don't you have any other friends besides me? "
"Yeah, I just always came to you because I thought you were my best friend, but hey? it won't be hard to find another one if I was wrong," I say. I'm very angry but I say everything calmly to hide the fact I want to punch her in the face.
"Gabri-" she starts to say something but I hang up before she finishes. I don't even care anymore really.
I have no social life?
I'm always depending on her?
I don't have any other friends besides her?
If she thinks that's true she needs to remember her life before we met and then see if she has such a big mouth then.

I throw my phone down then realize I'm still bored. I pick up my phone and decide to call Hazel.
But before I could push her name I get a text.
Unknown.
Isn't this like the third one today?
I sigh and open the text.

What would you do if I told you, your cure to boredom is not Roxanne,  nor Hazel, but,  right outside your house? Don't worry, it's not me.  -I

what the...
I look out the window and see two guys riding their bikes up and down the street. One of them does some kind of trick that reveals their face.
I really didn't even need to see his face because I'd know his hair from anywhere.
It was Nathan.

I get super excited and was about to text Roxy to come outside when I remembered the dilemma that just occurred.
So I'm know my own this time.

I run in my closet and change into my black and white volleyball shorts and a red tank top with my black and white Nike roshies.
I take out my headphones and iPod then run downstairs and into the garage. As soon as I open the garage I hear a deep voice scream, and something crash.
I run out the garage to see a bike in my driveway with Nathan standing at the end of it.
"What the heck?" I yell while coming out into the sun.
Nathan and someone else started laughing hysterically.
"You -you scared me so bad, " he managed to say in between laughs.
Someone else came out from around the back startling me.
Again the unforgettable dyed hair, made me instantly recognize who it was, Dominic.
"Did you hear him scream? " He asked, still laughing.
"Well yeah!" I said beginning to laugh at nothing but Nathans and Dominic's laughs by themselves.
We all laughed for like five more minutes then finally Nathan stopped.
"So why are you here? " he asks.
"I live here?" I say.
"Oh, so why are you outside?"
"Um why are you asking so many questions? And I was gonna ride my bike around the neighborhood....like I always do... " I lied
I barely ever go outside...
"Well that's what we're doing, "  he replies.
"Okay? Can't we just ride together? "
"No! " Dominic and Nathan say together.
"What? Why? " I ask, praying they were just kidding.
"You'll  just slow is down! We ride fast bruh, you won't be able to keep up with us, " Dominic says, sounding pretty serious.
"I've been riding since I was like five, " I lied.  "I'm pretty sure I'll be fine, "
"Doesn't matter how long you've been riding, doesn't mean you're fast like us, " Nathan says,  getting on his bike.
"How would you know how good I can ride?" I ask, getting super worried that they're not kidding.
"Dude listen, you're a girl, girls just aren't fast enough like guys, " Dominic says while getting on his bike.  "In like a split second, we'll be gone! "
"He's right," Nathan nods his head.
"You guys are so stupid, " I roll my eyes.
"We're not kidding! " Dominic yells.
"Guys, that doesn't make the slightest bit of sense how my gender, means I can't ride as fast, come on we're all friends here so I don't see the problem, "
"Ehh...kinda friends... " Nathan says, making me cringe inside.
"Same" Dominic says as he puts his kickstand up, making me cringe even more.
"What guys! You-"
"Your not coming with us! " Nathan also puts his kickstand up and turns his bike around.
"You guys are idiots! " I yell as I watch them ride away.
I run back inside and slam the door shut then run upstairs into my room and jump on my bed.
I feel tears come down my face and a big lump in my throat, but I refuse to cry. I know that they're not even worth it but I still like them.
Oh my god.
I said them...
Which implies I still like Nathan...
I didn't want this to happen but I can't stop it and I don't know why.
I sigh aloud and close my eyes then let myself fall backwards on my bed.
How do I stop this?
They were just complete jerks to me, and I still like them. But earlier Dominic was so sweet at the park... why did it change when Nathan came around?
Boys are confusing.
And it sucks.
Why can't I fall for a nice guy?

I go to what I always do when I'm in distress: headphones.
I lay on my back and turn on my Spotify playlist.
The first song that comes on is Crave by Tove Lo.

I listen for a while until the some of the lyrics that of course, describes my situation, break me.

You are my favorite mistake.
The one I keep loving to make.

A/N
Hey! So ive decided to go ahead and... write another book!  Just Friends is not ending but a new one is just beginning! So please check it out and vote and comment on every chapter please it means a lot when you do vote and comment so please do that and hope you like my books!
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