Poems of a broken artist

I'm sorry

I'm sorry that I've never loved but I'm scared like I have. 

I'm sorry I put decisions on you that should be mine. 

I'm sorry that I love you too much to explain. 

I'm sorry for the words out of my mouth that contradict what you say. 

I'm sorry for disagreeing and agreeing with every word you say. 

I'm sorry for believing every lie and never believing any truth even though you explain. 

I'm sorry for being deceitful and a liar I'm sorry for calling you one. 

I'm sorry for the way I act look, act, how I crave your attention, and love while pushing you away.

I'm sorry for my existence for I fear no one, nothing, but life.

and I'm sorry for almost leaving you and everyone else,

for that knife is tempting but your heart is healing,

and now only now,

I can listen and stop saying sorry.

For now I have so sorry for everything and nothing at all. 

I have no use for using that word with you again for I will never hurt, you fall away from you, or push you again so, 

I'm sorry that I love you