Chest Box (Killer x Reader)

Chapter 16: Painkiller

"You are no different from your brother who killed multiple innocent people. How could you kill Captain Zatur who treated you, us, like his own?"

The wounds in your body are patched and treated already but none of it hurts more than those words you've received from a friend, or should you say your 'past friend'. Well, that's how it looks like in the current situation.

Killer knew to himself that you needed space to think and maybe reflect on what happened. He let you be by yourself and have alone time. You two haven't talked to each other yet ever since the ship got out of the fight. Even the issue about your conversation with Smoker has not been tackled yet.

Everyone needs time to rest for now.

You sat on the mouth of the skull of Victoria's Punk, letting the breeze ease your mind. Despite the lack of sleep and body aches, your mind is awake preventing you from feeling sleepy.

What should you do now? Mich made the others believe in her story. Taking Koby with her mission was part of her plan. Although, there is no denying it but it's not fair to put all the blame on your shoulders.

How can you prove your own story to the public? How can you ease the pain of the families and friends of your past colleagues who died if no one will listen to you. They only see Mich as someone who's innocent while you carry all the blame.

What should I do? It's killing me.

Wait...

I'm a murderer too.

Maybe I deserve all of this.

Despite the burden in your heart, no tear fell. You have reached the phase where you just stare into nothingness without having the urge to cry. It's just too much to handle everything right now. It's beginning to pull you down day after day. And maybe, everything piled up made you numb and unable to cry.

The guilt.

The conscience.

The weakness.

Even the feeling of loneliness where nobody believed you started to lurk in the corner of your mind again but not a single tear fell.

Have you lost it? Have you lost your sanity?

"I'd understand if you'll blame me if people see you just like how they see me" A voice commented, causing you to look back immediately only to see your brother.

" What do you mean?" Still managing to smile even if your voice is clearly laced with sadness and tiredness.

"I heard the marine boy. He said you are no different from me who killed multiple innocent people." Kid's gaze is on the dark horizon. You smiled at him and lean to place your head in his shoulder, feeling the mixture of warmth from his flesh and coolness from the metallic arm attached to him.

" They'll see you as a notorious one whenever they learn that I'm your brother. People will judge you for bearing our family name." Kid said.

" I am a Eustass after all and I'm proud of it. But it never came into my mind to blame you for being hunted by the pirate hunters or be judged by my old marine friends. It was never really the issue. I am being chased because of Mich and because of what happened before. "

" What happened to you in the past was never your fault."

"I am a murderer of an innocent man, that one thing will always be the truth." You look down on your shaking palms.

"We talked about this already and I believe you. I believe you did it as an order. If your past comrades can't believe you, I am here to believe your statement. You're a chef, author, artist, a woman who's head over heels to Killer and you're an idiot." Kid said those words with a poker face. To anyone who doesn't know him well, they'll think he's bad at talking to emotional people. To you, it is the most sincere words he could ever say to you.