Deep End

Part 2

Changbin sat at the table with his head in his hands, berating himself for not having more courage. If only he'd believed in himself more and had confessed his feelings to Felix years ago. Even if Felix didn't feel the same, at least it might have stopped the whole mess with Chan happening.

He'd fallen for Felix pretty much the moment they'd met, back in high school. At that point Changbin hadn't fully realised his sexuality. He thought he was straight, until he met Felix. 

It took most of a year to work through the whirlwind of emotions, eventually deciding he was Bisexual. All through this time though, he secretly watched Felix to try to decide where he fell in the spectrum. Felix gave no clues whatsoever. Any talk of crushes or the like were smoothly ignored and subjects changed. Changbin eventually decided Felix was Asexual and let the whole subject drop completely. It didn't halt his massive crush on Felix, but Changbin tried to be the best 'best friend' ever.

It wasn't until some time after they'd graduated from High School that Changbin received a hint from Felix about where his interests lay. Changbin's parents had financed a move into a roomy new flat and he'd insisted that Felix needed to be his flatmate. Felix wasn't about to argue, since it gave him the opportunity to delay the business studies his parents wanted him to complete, and try to make it as a songwriter.

To celebrate, Minho, Jisung, Hyunjin and Jeongin had been invited over for a few drinks. They were all pretty drunk, when a game of Truth or Dare had been proposed. There were a few tame questions asked of everyone to start with, but then Hyunjin asked Felix 'Who in this room would you like to date?' Eyebrows shot up when Felix chose to finish his drink instead of answering. Changbin was fully expecting a bland 'No one', but this suggested the answer was a yes instead. Changbin sat there stunned as his friends erupted around him. With everyone clamouring for an answer, he sat there with the words 'Maybe he is gay' screaming through his mind.

Felix flat out refused to answer though and insisted that since he'd had a drink, they had to move on to his turn. After a quick break though, since he needed to use the bathroom.

As soon as he left the room, Hyunjin whisper-shouted to Changbin 'I told you Hyung, I told you! He's not ace, he's got to be a bit gay. It has to be you!' 

Changbin's friends all knew of his huge crush on Felix. They all wanted him to confess back in school but Changbin said he was sure that Felix was ace and that a confession would be unwelcomed. They had all scoffed and told him he was just too chicken. They weren't wrong, but Changbin really didn't want to ruin the friendship by that stage so he kept his feelings deep inside.

Felix came back into the room, grabbed a fresh drink and spun the bottle for his turn. It landed on Minho who immediately blurted out 'Dare!' 

Minho was a bit nervous to answer a Truth question at this stage. After Felix's question, he (correctly) assumed he'd be asked a similar question, and he was sure he'd spill the beans on his burgeoning crush on Jisung. He hadn't told anyone, but it was quite obvious to anyone paying attention. Minho thought a Dare question would be easier to get around until he noticed Felix's eyes flick to Jisung. Minho's eyes widened as he saw Felix slightly wink to Jisung. Felix turned back to Minho and said 'Ok, I dare you to kiss Jisung".

Minho flushed a deep red and contemplated the bottle in his hand. Could he do it? Could he kiss Jisung? He desperately wanted to but was terrified at the same time. He started to bring the bottle to his mouth and heard a soft gasp from Jisung's direction. Minho froze and flicked a glance to his crush. Was that disappointment in his eyes? Could he want Minho to kiss him? Courage bloomed in Minho's chest as he slammed the bottle onto the floor.