OneShots♡ (Bradga)

Sometimes we all need a hero

He looked at me with so much love, but I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't hurt him, just like me. I wouldn't. When he took my hand and looked into my eyes, with those damn perfect little dimples, I had to fight the tears in my eyes.

Bradley, I- I love you and you know that, but this, between us. I don't want you to fall apart like me. I'm losing myself right now and I really don't want that to happen to you too, just because you're with me.

His thumb gently stroked my knuckles as he just shook his head.

I don't fall apart or lose myself, neither do you.

I couldn't look at him, but looked at the floor.

I did, I already am, doing it right now. I don't want you to hurt yourself with the shit I'm going through and-

Hey!

His voice was so soothing and immediately he made me look back into the beautiful blue.

Sit down and look at me, okay? Can you do that for me?

I nodded, biting my lower lip as I did so and sat down. The world around me was forgotten, suddenly I saw only him. His thumb gently stroked my lips and immediately I stopped biting the sensitive skin, as if he had known.

I know what you've been through and god yes, I will never be able to comprehend some things the way you had experience them, but I still understand you. I know what you're going through, I can see it in your eyes. It may feel like you're losing yourself right now, like you're falling apart, but you're not. You're finding yourself again, you're finding Stefani again. You don't have to be afraid of that or scared. I got you.

It's not that. I am not scared, maybe a little bit- I just, I don't know.

For a brief moment I closed my eyes to remind myself of what I wanted to say, but then I heard him whisper some words in my ear.

You're afraid it will be too much for me, that everything will fall apart, but it won't. You know my story, Stef. You know what has happened in my life. It took a long time that I realized what I was doing, finding myself again and clearing my mind. It was a tough and long way, which I had to go, but it got a lot easier since I have you. I trust you.

You know that I do too. I trust you with my life B, but I don't trust myself.

He nodded and stroked a strand of hair from my face with his hand. It was overwhelming, that feeling of being understood.

I don't want you to feel bad because of me. I'm not easy, I know that. I know I have problems and that everything gets too much for me sometimes. I don't want you to suffer because of me. What about Lea? I don't want her to notice when I see only black again or when I give myself up again. I don't want that! I can't make your life so hard, you don't dese-

A few unnoticed tears had rolled down my cheeks and dripped onto my shirt. My voice left me.

Stef, Stef, stop. Listen to me. Don't think like that, okay. You are perfect as well as you are and-

Before I could say a word, he held his hand in front of me and raised an eyebrow, signaling me to just listen to his words.

I love you for that, I love you the way you are, every side of you. You don't hurt me or break me, whatever. You save me, you have saved me ... so many times already, every day.

Somehow my hand was on his thigh when he said that to me and I gently grabbed his jeans. He gave me support, even though I couldn't find anything in my mind that made me feel safe, he was there.