One Shots-Måneskin

Horrible mother (Ethan)

Tw: R4pe, SA, Angst
Please don't read it if you feel uncomfortable!!! It's not really explicit but yeah if those trigger you, you should not read it.
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Me and Ethan have a girl, Nica.
Nica is 5 Years old and today was her best friends birthday so I let her to go to the party.

I got ready, I wore my favourite black leather pants, a white shirt and my boyfriends jacket and I left the house so I could go and get nica back home.

On my way there I saw two guys staring at me but I ignored them and I started walking faster.

"Where are you going, love" one of the guys said but I ignored him.
They sat in front of me blocking my way.
"Could you please leave me alone?" I said
"Oh sweetheart. Don't worry. You'll love us" the other guy said and grabbed my hand tight.
They dragged me and pushed me between two buildings.
"Leave me alone. Please!" I said trying to stay calm.
"Why. What happend? You are not into boys or what?" one of them said.
"Please. I have to go somewhere important" I said scared
"I know where are you going and i assure you that i'll let you get your girl. But after we cum. You don't know how hard you made us when we saw you this morning" the second man said.
"And if you'll shout be sure that you'll never see your girl again. Understood?" he continued
I nodded frightened and I let them drag me in an old garage.
"C'mon lady, get undressed" the first guy said. "I promise you that it won't take too long" he continued
"No please. Can't I pay or something. Please. I have money and my purse is expensive and you could sell it." I said tearing up.
"Baby.. we don't need your money. Don't worry beautiful" one of them approach me and touched my face wiping my tears. "Let me take your clothes of" he slowly undressed me while the other one started filming.
I didn't had the strenght to do or say anything so I waited.

They both raped me. They recorded me and left. I sat there naked and waiting. Idk why I was waiting but I hoped deep inside me that ethan will come and save me. I needed him to come and hug me and dress me so I could get home. Home. I should go home...

I dressed and I walked towards the house me and Ethan were staying. I forgot about Nica. I forgot even the place I left her this morning. I forgot everything except the way home. So I went there hoping that I will find peace.

I arrived home and I took my shoes off.
I sat on the sofa. I just sat there. I wasn't crying or planning to do something. I showed no emotion but inside me it was a mess. My whole body was in pain.

Since I came home I didn't move a bit. I sat still, but I heard the door opened. I was sure it was ethan so I got up and went straight to the door. I needed him. I needed his hug. His kisses. And I hoped that he will be next to me. At least till I feel better
As I saw him I smiled, but he looked at me mad. He told Nica to go to her room so she did.

"Where the fuck were you?" He asked but I just looked at him. "Where the FUCK were you?" He shouted.
"I-" ethan cut me of.
"You were supposed to take Nica from the party. I left my car so you could go and get her. But what? You didn't even left the house! I stopped the rehearsals because Nica called me and told me two guys were following her on her way home. She was alone and two dudes were following her. I tried to call you, but you didn't answear. She called you but you didn't pick up. WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING!" He shouted.
"Ethan please!" I cried.
"Please what huh? PLEASE FUCKING WHAT! You know what should have happend to Nica? You know? She could been kidnapped or raped or killed. You don't know what those guys were thinking!" He said "you don't give a fuck about her do you? You don't give a fuck about us, it's that right? If something happened to Nica, I swear to god that we were over. Luckily I was there to answear her calls, no?" He said looking at me with disgust and walked past me in the livingroom.
"Ethan please I didn't-" I was cut of again by Ethan
"Y/n. I don't regret having Nica. Nica is the best child I could ever wish for but I regret. I regret that I know she could have a better mother. A better mom. I love you. But this was enough. You put our 5 years old child in danger. A 5 years old. I am glad that we don't have two kids because youre not able of rasing one child." He spoke and started walking the stairs
"Ethan please don't say that. I love Nica and I was going to take her but... I was raped" I cried and I wispered the last part. Ethan turned around and looked at me. I was on my knees crying. "I know I am a bad mom. I know" I started shaking.
"Y/n. What did you just said!?" He was shoked and walked straight to me. He sat on his knees in front of me. "Is that true?" He asked
"I told them that I have to go and take my child but they didn't let me. They raped and recorded me. I-" I started crying and shaking even harder. "I am sorry ethan" I managed to say.
He hugged me and kissed my forehead. "Baby. You need to breath ok? Look at me and breath. We will breath togheter!" He cupped my face and we both started taking deep breaths till I calmed down.
"Ethan I am sorry for being a bad mom for Nica. And a bad girlfriend for you. I get it if you will wanna break up with me and make Nica forget about me. I don't deserve any of you" I said as I broke ethans hug.
"Baby. I will never wanna break up with you. Never. Nica loves you and I love you too. And about that bad mom thing. I never meant it and I am feeling guilty for saying this. I should have asked you not shout at you." Ethan said and took my hands.
"I am sorry" he told me.
I looked at him and then I looked at our hands.
"Did they hurt you?" He asked and I nodded
"How many they were?"
"Two" I said and I looked at him. "They raped me 3 times. Once togheter and one time each" I continued. "When they left the only thing my body could do is to walk home so i did. I needed you Ethan. I waited there for you but i know you will never came to take me so I came here hoping to find you. Ethan it hurts. My body hurts." I cried
He looked at me and tore up. "Amo you should have called me. If I knew I-... I am so sorry. We will get through this togheter ok? I'll be here for you."
"Could we not tell Nica about this?" Was the only thing I could say.
"Of course. She's too young to understand anyways" he said and he put his hand slowly on my arm. "I am sorry for what i've said, amo. I hate me for saying what I said. I don't regret you being Nica's mom. I could never imagine a life without you in it. And you know how to raise a child. And you deserve better than me. You do. But I am glad you chose me. You chose me to be the father of your child. Even if we didn't planned her. You still chose to keep her and to make me her dad. I love you."
"I love you" I said and I leaned to kiss him.
We stayed all day cuddling on the sofa in silence. I needed silence.

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