The Dance Inside (Kellic) (BoyxBoy)

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I sat on the side of the road, crying my eyes out. I was so scared. I couldn't believe I just blurted that out to my dad. Now the secret I spent so long keeping to myself was out and everything was going to change.

I looked up through blurry eyes when I heard a car approaching. It had to be Alfie. After I ran from the farm, I kept running down the highway until I couldn't go any further and stopped. That was when I called Alfie and asked him to come and get me. I just needed him to get me far away from home.

He stopped the car a little away from me and got out. He jogged over to me as I stood up.

"Are you okay? You were so upset on the phone." He said.

I shrugged. I wasn't okay in the slightest. My world was just turned upside down. Alfie frowned when he got a good look at me.

"What happened?" He asked.

"I accidentally told my dad I'm gay." I said, and saying it out loud made it so much more real.

"What? Accidentally? How?" He asked.

I looked at him thoughtfully. I didn't know if what my dad said about him was true, but if it was then I didn't want to put Alfie on the spot. I didn't want to force him to come out if he didn't want to. Could he actually be gay though? Surely he would have said something, especially after I came out to him. I wouldn't ask him about it now though.

"We were arguing about stupid stuff and I just said it." I said.

"Well...what did he say?" He asked.

"I don't know. I ran and then called you," I said as a sob escaped my lips, "I dunno what I'm gonna do when I get back, Alfie. I've screwed everything up."

"Hey, don't think like that." He said and took a step forward. He put his hands on my shoulders and rubbed them comfortingly.

"I don't know what else to think. I don't know what to do." I cried.

He tilted his head to the side, giving me a sympathetic look before he came closer and pulled me into a hug. I hugged him back. Honestly it was just good to know I had someone on my side.

"He's gonna disown me, I know it." My voice came out muffled into his shoulder.

"He won't. He's an asshole, but he won't." He said.

I pulled away from the hug and wiped the tears from my cheeks. I just felt all over the place. I was scared about going home and I was confused about Alfie. I didn't know how to act or what to feel.

"You know what you need?" He asked.

"What?"

"You need a drink."

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I had never been much of a drinker, but I heard it could help people forget their problems, and that was why I drank the beer, one after the other. I didn't even know how everyone got the alcohol, but there weren't many kids our age in town so there was plenty to go around.

It wasn't like I was the only drunk one around. Pretty much everyone was drinking. I stumbled out of the bushes after doing my business and tripped over my own two feet. One second I was up and the next I was on the ground.

"I'm okay." I said, pushing myself up, "I'mmm 'kay."

I got up, wobbling around on weak knees. I almost tripped over again on Jenna who was making out with a boy from our class; Cam. Dad'll be so disappointed his planned marriage didn't work out. Still, seeing them made me wish I had Vic here to make out with, but I doubted we'd ever be able to kiss in public. Maybe one day. The thought had me smiling.