when we were enemies ~ hyunlix

four

I didn't know what to say.

"no it's okay my house isn't that far away" I replied feeling myself get hot.

"just take it, I don't want you to be sick the next day" he answered me back and forced the umbrella in my hands.

he cares for me if I get sick or not?

"but, how are you gonna get home you'll be wet" I said giving him a reason to take the umbrella back.

"i'm fine felix. I have a hood that'll be enough" he argued against my point.

"but that hood isn't enough hyunjin" I continued and he looked at me.

"my house isn't that far away either so just use it. you can either keep it or give it back to me tomorrow" he said as he put his head back down and finished his last bite of ramen.

"fine, if you say so then" I ended the conversation and started to walk away from the table and outside the convenience store.

I started to unlock my door and close the umbrella to go inside. I didn't know what to with it, like do I put it in my school bag? do I keep it in my room?

why are you overthinking again felix just calm down. I bet he isn't even overthinking about this so why are you?

I just sat down at my desk staring at the umbrella in front of me. he just lied to me and told me the hood he had was 'enough' to protect him from heavy ass rain.

wow, you're just getting that now?

it was still raining but not as much as before, I had nothing to do and I was home by myself if you couldn't tell, so I continued my homework that I had.

after I finished it I went over to my bed and sat there with an empty mind but only one thing circling my mind.

it was that hyunjin guy.
why wouldn't he come out of my head?
why was he the only thing i was thinking about?
why am i overthinking?
why? why? why?

"UGH" I yelled out of frustration as I threw one of my pillows at the wall.

"you know what" I said as I ended my sentence like that and left my room down the stairs and outside.

I know I just came back from outside but I just couldn't be in my room with that thing in it.

I sat on my doorstep and did nothing. nothing at all. i just. sat.

the rain did stop so I didn't have to worry about me getting soaked again.

the sky was starting to get dark which meant the time was around 6pm - 7pm.

I was wearing a long sleeve sweatshirt with a pair of sweatpants but that didn't help me keep warm. those were the clothes I wore after school and the ones that got soaked on my way back to the convenience store.

I should go inside now.

right when I was about to open the door and go inside, my phone started to ring.

I looked at the caller and it was jisung.

jisung? what does he want?

"hi? why'd you call me?" I asked him.

"bro" he replied.

what.?

"huh? jisung?" I was confused, why is he acting like this.

"did you do the english homework Mr. bahng set us?" he said.

that was a very random question right now.

"uhm yea, why" I questioned him.

"can i copy it tomorrow at school? please" he asked.

"bye jisung" and just like that I hung up on his face.

this guy never does his homework. he only does it whenever he feels like it.

I entered my bedroom and jumped on my bed.

I couldn't sleep like this, I needed to change.

so I forced myself to get up and change into different clothes.

I wore one of my pj sets and went back into bed.

I'm not going school tomorrow.

I don't want to.

not because of jisung.

I just don't want to.

my mother will probably tell me a lecture but I couldn't care less.

i just felt. something?

like as in you know out of nowhere you get a wave of sadness or a feeling you don't know how to explain or express.

yeah. exactly that.
that's me right now.
for no reason at all.

and like that I could slowly feel my eyes getting heavy and they soon shut.