when we were enemies ~ hyunlix

sixteen

"if you say so" with that I got up from my knees, kissed my mother on the forehead and then left the room.

we got into hyunjin's car and I was waiting for him to start driving but he didn't.

he just looked at me and then hugged me.

"what is this for?" I said as I rested my chin on his shoulder.

"it's to see that someone cares for you and how you feel, so you wouldn't have to feel weak when you aren't weak" hyunjin said as he tightened the hug for a few seconds and then let go.

he started driving while playing some music to lighten up the mood.

we arrived at his house again and this time I just went inside without stopping in front of the car like last time.

hyunjin let me use his bathroom to clean myself up. he also gave me his extra clothes to wear.

first, I washed my face and my hands I then took a shower since hyunjin doesn't mind and then wore the clothes he gave me.

it was 12:28 am now.

hyunjin said he was going to sleep on the extra mattress he had again and me in his bed.

I should be the one sleeping on the floor with the mattress, not hyunjin and especially in his own house.

as much as I told him that, he was being stubborn and let me sleep on his bed.

I got inside his bed and snuggled the duvet.

I want hyunjin to hug and comfort me again. it feels nice and safe in his touch, his words make me feel warm.

I want to experience it again.

"jinnie, I want to be comforted again. can you please comfort me?" I asked him.

since when did I get so bold?

he got up and laid down on the empty spot next to me.

hyunjin took me in his embrace and placed his chin on top of my head. this time I hugged him back and never wanted to let go.

I melted in his touch.

my heart skipped a beat almost every time we were this close.

my head was on his arm and he placed one of his hands on my head and then started to pet my hair. afterwards, he began to play with a few strands of my hair.

I loved it when people would do that. it was my favourite thing in the universe it always made me feel loved.

but I never ask for it. I would wait and see if people would do it without me saying anything.

hyunjin moved his chin down and lifted my chin with his other hand then placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.

my heart stopped beating. that's what I thought, it felt like it did.

this felt like a dream... a fever dream.

I wanted to lift my head and look at him again but, I didn't want to ruin the position his hand was in.

he then pulled my head closer to his chest as he moved his other free hand on my waist.

this solved all of my problems at the moment.
not every time or every day.

this was the first time and probably the last time me and hyunjin will get to do something like this.

(a/n - you sure lix? 😉)

"hyunjin..." I mumbled and he still heard me.

"mhm" he hummed in response.

"do you smoke?" I asked him, yes it might seem like a random question right now but I need to smoke a cigarette to calm me down.

I was calm in the position I am in with hyunjin but, I needed something to take away my stress.

"I used to, why?" he said looking down at me and I looked up at him.

we were now looking in each others eyes, I could see his pupils grow and my eyes would sometimes shift down to his plump lips but I tried to keep myself contained.

I didn't know he used to smoke.

"if you have any cigarettes, can I smoke one now?" I asked him.

"it's too late now lix" he simply answered and continued to stroke my hair.

"please" I said tugging on his shirt for him to look back down at me and allow me to smoke.

"but what about your mom? I don't think she would like her son smoking" he gave me a reason.

"but I need to smoke right now, please" I said ignoring about what he said about my mom not liking if I was to smoke.

"lix... fine how am I meant to resist you when you pull that face on me?" he gently lifted my head off his arm and his other hand off my waist.

he walked over to his closet and pulled out a cigarette packet with a lighter from one of his jackets and motioned me to come outside to his balcony.

he handed me the packet and I took out a cigarette and started lighting it.