Fire and Ice (A Sebastian Sallow x FemaleMC)

Chapter 11

Playlist - Lost on you by LP

I was currently sat across my silver haired best friend, who who fumbling with his thumbs. The three broomsticks was practically empty, which gave us some time to have this long awaited conversation. Ominis had been ignoring me for the past few days, ever since the incident at potions. After I finally caught him by having to hide inside one of the restrooms and jump out, scaring him half to death, he agreed to meet me here.

There was a distance between us which I didn't like. I didn't like it one bit. Only weeks ago, him and I where sharing a bed together as we always did, but now, now we seemed like strangers.

Sirona brought over two butter beers and placed them on our table, giving me a look as she noticed the tension between us.

"Thank you Sirona."

Despite being blind, he still could not look up to face me, which dug the knife that was now placed in my heart deeper.

"Sooo...." I started, tapping my fingernails to try and make him avert his eyes to mine. But he didn't, he just stayed silent, creating an even larger tension between us.

"Ominis for the love of Merlin can you please speak to me?"

A sigh escaped his lips, his face finally turning to mine. I had to admit, that I had now, noticed how perfectly structured his face was - how the arch of his brow dipped perfectly above his eyes, how his nose resembled a slope as it lifted slightly at the tip and how his lips, although thin, where rather plump. I always knew he was a good-looking man, but for some reason, I was paying extra attention tonight, especially since he swapped his usual robes to a dark blue jumper that hugged his physique wonderfully.

"I don't know what you want me to say." He stated as he grabbed onto the butter beer and brought it to his lips.

"Well for starters, care to explain why you have been avoiding me? Evading me when I passed by, getting up early in the morning so I don't catch you before classes, ignoring my owls?" The list could have gone on and on but I found myself searching his face for the answers, hoping that he wasn't going to say something that might affect our friendship.

He shuffled in his seat and mumbled, "I just needed some time alone."

There was no way he was going to talk, it was either I pry it out of him or I had to ask him straight, which I decided on the latter.

"Do you have feelings for me Ominis?"

A choke in his throat startled me and I leaned forward to try and pat my hand to his back, but he stopped me, reassuring me that he was okay. I am well aware that I was being very direct, but what choice did I have? He wasn't going to talk, he could barely hold his drink without shaking.

The wrinkles on his forehead had gathered a bead of sweat that dripped down the sides of his cheeks. His foot was tapping quite loudly against the wooden floor and his jaw, clenched and tight.

"When you and I first met Y/N I must admit, I did not like you."

Well that certainly dug a hole in my chest.

"And for the most part, I was extremely jealous of how close you and Sebastian had become. I was left out, always second best whilst Sebastian was at the centre of the stage. So, in a selfish way, I was happy when he distanced himself from us because that meant I could have you all to myself.

I couldn't help how I started to feel every time you fell asleep next to me or how you held me close when I had nightmares. You where there for me, every step of the way and I would be mad not to fall in love with you."

My own gasp startled me as I took in his words. In love. Ominis was in love with me. But I didn't love him back, not in the way he wanted me to.

"Ominis...I-I" I could not speak, I could not think and I could not move. My whole world came crashing down on me as I was presented with a dilemma I could not fight with my wand or magic. This dilemma was one I had to take on with my heart.

"You need not explain yourself, I accepted rejection the first time I heard the way he made you laugh, the way he made you giggle at his rubbish jokes. Y/N, the difference between Sebastian and I, is that I have always been yours, but you have always been his."

Coldness and sadness filled inside me as a gentle tear slid down my cheek, I myself, unsure as to why I was feeling so perplexed. This beautiful man, this perfect man, had just confessed to me what I had wanted to hear. But not from him. And for the first time, I suddenly felt regret. Regret that I could not share his feelings, regret that I could not be the woman he needed me to be. Regret that I was in love with his best friend.

And then the realisation came rushing towards after hiding away for some many years....

I was in love with Sebastian Sallow.