kinks and all

lover

(threads of life series)

December 26, 2022

y/n jones, you must've heard the name, I'm pretty famous for 2 reasons

a) I'm an author and my books are, not to brag, a teen sensation

b) how I gained my fame, I, y/n jones am one of the closest friends of min yoongi, you know the famous rapper from BTS? yea we've been friends since I was 14. it's pretty cool, it was until it wasn't, until I fell in love with him. no one knows obviously, other than my best friend, bangchan, yes the very one, we were neighbors. chan has been urging me to confess for a while now, I don't want to but I know he's right

today we, me, chan, and the (BTS) boys are having a lil bonfire and barbeque in our backyard, and by our I mean, the boys' backyard. it's something we do during winter, it's nice, we have songs, food, and because I can't convince Jimin otherwise, alcohol. we've been planning a bonfire since October and we finally stopped procrastinating

"guys, do you have any crackers? I found the marshmallows and chocolate" I said putting said marshmallow in my mouth, "there should be some in the kitchen, I'll come with you" yoongi replied, trying to start the fire. I instantly felt red coat my cheeks, my heart skipped a beat, he talked to me, meee! "he didn't talk to the wall now did he?" chan whispered, taking the chocolate out of my hand "I said it out loud" I whispered embarrassedly "just confess, simp" "shut up chan" I glared at him.

chan sat near the bonfire as yoongi joined me on the porch, "come on" I followed yoongi to the kitchen, and he pointed me to the cabinet with the crackers. "yoongi" he hummed "help I'm too short" he chuckled "you're adorable" oh god, I felt giddy like a teenage girl, I covered my cheek with my hands to make sure he didn't see how red I was, "here" he handed the box of crackers to me, I held the box to take it but our hands touched and, maybe I was hallucinating, but he moved closer there was a sudden shift in the air, "yoo-" a loud laugh from outside got our attention, "we should go outside," I said holding the box tightly against my chest, "ye-yeah" we both walked back out in silence.

I cuddled chan while he sat across us, we both maintained eye contact for a second before, "y/n! here have some" I hummed taking a sip of the red wine, "why are you flustered?" chan hushed, I ignored him, "here the chicken's ready, don't wait for it to cool, I'll be right back" jin oppa kept the plate on the table and rushed back to the stove

~a few hours later~

after some games, lot's of food, and a few bottles of wine, we sat cuddled in blankets. it was half past midnight yet neither of us had the thought of sleeping, the boys were singing some songs, I rarely knew them so I only occasionally joined. chan nuzzled me mumbling, "you should play the guitar" "chan no" "or confess" "you can't make me!" "do you want me to show you?" I groaned at this stubborn man, I stood up, "ok guys y/n will play the guitar" he had that stupid smirk on his face, there were some cheers and words of encouragement, "I don't have a guitar tho mine's at home" "borrow mine" yoongi said, instantly standing up to fetch said guitar.

I sat down next to channie again, and asked him to fill my glass with wine again, I took a few sips from the glass and sighed, what would I play? "take care of it" yoongi handed me his guitar, I held it in my hands, deciding what to play, the only sound that could be heard was the chirping of the crickets and the crackling of the fire, a sudden thought to confess to yoongi invaded my mind, maybeeee? what's the worst that can happen right? that is defiantly the wine talking. I picked up my glass and finished the rest on a sip and said, "this song is dedicated to someone I have liked for a while now", "woooo go y/n" jungkook slurred. I played the first note and then the second, there is no backing out now I guess, I looked at yoongi and sang, eyes glued on him

♪

We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January
And this is our place, we make the rules
And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you dear
Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?

yoongi held his wine glass against his chest and swayed to the melody, if only he knew

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home
You're my, my, my, my
Lover

chan kept his hand on my back, I relaxed in his touch

We could let our friends crash in the living room
This is our place, we make the call
And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all

~

You're my, my, my, my
Oh, you're my, my, my, my
Darling, you're my, my, my, my
Lover

♪

I played the last note and fell back in chan's embrace, I did it I unofficially confessed. I kept the guitar on the grass gently, "so hyung what's your answer?" Jimin nudged yoongi smiling, yoongi's brows furrowed "huh?" how did Jimin figure it out!?!. I looked at chan, and he shook his head and raised his hands in surrender mouthing, 'not me' ughh this is bad, I felt my stomach churn, I have a bad feeling about this...

I hid my face in chan's chest, I don't want to see his reaction. "what? did none of you notice?" jimin's pitch raised in disbelief "y/n's 'person I have liked for a while now' is obviously yoongi hyung" Jimin said it like everybody was stupid, "Jimin w-what are you sa-saying?" I don't like thisssss, "hyung it's been obvious for a few months now, and just now while singing her eyes were glued on you" I dug my face more into chan's chest (if that was even possible)."y/n is it true?" namjoon questioned, I mumbled in chan's chest not wanting to admit it, "she's shy it's obvious" jungkook points out my dreadful state "so hyung what say?" "then I have a confession of my own, I have liked y/n for a while now too"