umkansa - atwow highschool au

fourteen

ao'nung

After leaving the Sully's house Ao'nung got in his car, behind the wheel, with Tsireya in the passenger seat. He was contemplating whether to tell his sister about what happened between him and Neteyam, or if it was even worth telling. He knew that whatever happened, it felt different. But not strange, it was just different. He couldn't truly put it into words but he knew there was more to it than  he could process right now. When they arrived home he unlocked the car doors but didn't get out. His hands dropped from the wheel to his lap as his remained located in his seat. He could feel his sister eyeing him from the passenger seat. "Are you not gonna get out?" Tsireya remained eyeing her brother looking for any signs that something may be wrong. "No. I mean yes- yes I'm going to get out, just not yet," Ao'nung didn't return the eye contact. His eyes remained in the direction of his lap as he fiddled with his fingers. "Are you okay? Did they say something to you while we were there? Did they hurt your feelings?" At this point Tsireya was starting to worry, and asking back to back questions made that very obvious. Ao'nung always told his sister everything, always. But this time it felt like saying something was exposing something in him that he didn't know if he was ready to let out. His sister had known he never had a gender preference when it came to dating. His parents as well. He never actually had to come out, it was just something that everyone knew. But the moment he had with Neteyam felt so personal, he wanted to keep it for themselves. He wasn't sure if Neteyam felt uncomfortable after that so he avoided him the rest of his time at the Sully house. He would take small glances at Neteyam while he was laying on his bed and just saw him staring deeply into his phone. It seemed like he was avoiding Ao'nung as well. This had Ao'nung second guessing himself the whole ride home.

"I think I might like Neteyam," Ao'nung whispered. Deep down he hoping his sister didn't hear and he would get the chance to change the subject. "WHAT? REALLY? OMG AO' ARE YOU SERIOUS?" Tsireya freaked, speaking way louder than her brother appreciated. He quickly gave her a wide eyed glance, causing her shoulders to drop and an awkward laugh to escape her lips. "Sorry, got a little carried away. But when did you notice you liked him?" Ao'nung hesitated. He wasn't actually sure himself. "Well, I don't know. I don't even know if I actually like him. Maybe it was just an in the moment kind of thing? I don't know it's just something happened between us at his house, and then Lo'ak came in and it was all awkward but I don't even think he noticed me and Neteyam cause he was so worried about a stupid beanbag- But anyways, after that I sort of avoided Neteyam and I think I hurt his feelings because he also started avoiding me too, and I don't know why I did it I just thought maybe he was uncomfortable and if I didn't talk to him he wouldn't get the wrong idea and I just-" "Okay, okay, Ao'nung slow down. Why the fuck would your dumbass ignore him. Are you dumb? You have to be dumb," Tsireya gave her brother a deathly side eye. "Thanks Reya, you're making me feel so much better," Ao'nung huffed, opening the door getting ready to exit the car. He felt his sisters hand wrap around his wrist. "No, wait! Look I'm sorry, it's just, you can't have a semi-intimate moment with someone and then ignore them like nothing happened. I know it usually works out in movies but not here. You may not know if he's into men or not, but either way what happened between you guys, happened and you two need to talk about it with each other. You should really get in touch with him Nung, you probably really hurt his feelings and that's not right nor is it fair," Ao'nung closed the driver side door and let out a sigh. He knew he should talk to Neteyam, it was only right. But he was honestly scared. What if Neteyam thought what happened was weird and never wanted to hang out again? What if he completely ruined their chances of becoming close? What if he's telling his siblings right now how shitty he treated him and now none of them want to be his friends. Then he ruin the chance of making new friends not only from himself, but from Rotxo and Tsireya too. There were so many questions he had conjured up that he had no true answers to.