Soon You'll Get Better // Sandor Clegane

15. Untouchable

Monster / Petyr Baelish out now!

It was barely a year of love and laughs and never ending nights tangled up together when a raven from the king arrived at casterly rock.

the prince was born. Joffrey Baratheon. Sandor stared down at the decree and couldnt believe what shit luck he had. Sandor was told he would be the prices new guard. It wasnt a request but a demand. Sandor Clegane will be Joffreys new guard.

Sandor stared back Estella as he reread the scroll. They were impressed with him, his skills and now they wanted him. They wanted him to be the new prince Joffrey's guard.

"I will refuse." Sandor remarked. "I dont want to leave you. I wont leave you." Sandor declared and estella kissed him again but something was gnawing at her gut. Gnawing that this wouldnt end in happily ever after.

Korge confirmed that awful gnawing when he yanked her aside that night.

"Listen here girl." korge demanded. "Sandor is never going to amount to anything and this opportunity to be the princes guard is a big fucking deal." Estella took a hesitant step back.

"Sandor is better then you will ever know." Estella corrected.

"He's not. He's staying for you. You have to let him go. YOu want him stuck here forever like you, like me? No. You dont. This rock is where dreams go to die." Korge shouted.

"Sandor and I-"

"There is no sandor and you. Don't you get it girl? This is the kings request, he can't say no."

"Yet he did." Estella declared.

"For you. A nurse with no name, no titles nothing besides a decent bedside manner."

"I'm more then-"

"Not in the eyes of the king, in the eyes of the Gods." Korge seethed. "You end things, he deserves more is that not what you want? You want him to do more? You think he's capable more?"

"Of course but-"

"Then let him go. Set him free, he can't do that with you here giving him a false sense of happiness, the real world isnt like this. Set him free." Korge demanded as he marched off and Estella's breath caught in her chest. A whimper on her lips as she watched him go.

Could Sandor even logistically say no to the king? WOuld it get him killed? She would hate that, she knew he would do amazing, he would be a great protector but she was selfish and wanted him here with her.

"Hey I was looking for you." Sandor remarked and Estella wiped at her eyes. "Whats wrong? Who hurt you?" Sandor demanded.

"No, no I'm fine." estella assured. He kissed away her tears and it made her love him even more as she failed at holding back a sob.

"What happened?" Sandor begged pulling her closer. "Tell me.. tell me and I'll fix it."

"You can't." Estella whispered looking up at him. "Gods know it cuts like a dagger that you think your heart doesn't matter because I do, Sandor, I know you matter." Estella remarked. "No one else sees you like I do but the king wants you, to protect his son."

"I dont care about him, I care about you." Sandor declared.

"But sandor... He's the king," Estella whispered. "He saw how great you are, the world can see how great you are. Not just me. You would be praised for your bravery, your father would be proud of you. Your brother wouldnt be able to compare to you. You could be untouchable."

"I dont want to be untouchable. I want to be touched by you." Sandor corrected.

"I know we burn like the stars in the galaxy, shining bright in the darkness and I didn't want to believe it but I know, I knew when you got the scroll and I pushed it back but I know that it's true... you are destined for bigger and better things then this damn rock... then me."

"No." Sandor corrected immediately. "Estella no. I dont care about anything else besides you." Sandor declared.

"I didn't wanna let you down saying this is all that I want because Sandor it's everything I dreamed of... I don't wanna let you down but you should go. You should be the guard. Be that person for... I know you will do amazing."

"What?" Sandor rasped.

Estella knew that A part of her would never stopped looking for sandors face in the crowd when he left. But knowing she wouldnt ever have a place at the capital. She had to let him go. To do bigger and better things. To be the hero of his story. She hated that she had to let him go. Because she loved him so much.

"You are the love that I needed that I wanted that I will cherish forever... and I'm never going to forget you Sandor Clegane."

Sandor had to go to the capital. She was right. You couldnt say no to the king. No matter how much he wanted to.

This was goodbye.